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Chapter 45: "I can't take it anymore"

*NADYA POV*

I was going to the room that Jean used when she stayed to sleep in the tower, I was very nervous, what if she got mad at me for not being able to train? What if I no longer wanted to train? At first I didn't like the idea of ​​being trained, I don't like my powers, I just wanted to take them away, they were created by my father, but now the idea of ​​actually being able to control them doesn't sound so bad.

In a few seconds I reached the door of Jean's room, it took me a few seconds to find the courage to knock on the door and when I did I heard Jen's voice telling me to open

- Jean? - I asked when I opened

- Yes, what's up, Nadya? - She asked turning to look at me.

- Tomorrow is a special day for Wanda, Yelena, the Barton family and for me, and I didn't think about it when I said yes to training, but could we change it to another day, please? - I asked a little insecure for her answer, looking at the ground

- Yes, of course, we can change it to when you come back, what do you think? - she said, her answer made me look up from the ground to her eyes

- Oh really? - I asked her to make sure she was telling the truth and she wasn't playing me

- Yes, we are sisters, right? That's what sisters do, they support each other - said

- Yes, sisters - I murmured.

- I think we should talk about it - he said and that's when everything collapsed - It doesn't need to be now, it could be another day, but we need to talk about it, we can't be running away from the subject, I left because I needed to go back to school, but now that I'm here we can't run away anymore, I'm going to stay a few months, so we have a lot of time - she explained when she saw my look

- I guess we should, I can't now, maybe when we get back - I said quickly and left the room

I couldn't talk about it now, I couldn't, he needed to find Lila.

I ran to her room, but I didn't find her, I searched in the living room, but I only found Thor

- Thor, have you seen Lila? - I asked him a little anguished

- No, I think she left a while ago with her father, I notice you're a little nervous, do you need anything? - I wonder

- No... I'll go look for my sister - I said

- which one? - He asked, which made me even more nervous.

I ran from the living room to Yelena's room.

- Yelena - I called her

- Nadya? What's happening? - she asked leaving her book aside and approaching me.

- I was supposed to have no family, then I found you and now Jean and now she is my biological sister, but my biological sister was supposed to be Antonia and my father Dreykov, but I killed him and now we will have no answers for my fault. I can't take it anymore, Yelena, I can't take it anymore, I killed my father, the only person who could give me answers, I killed him - I managed to say through tears

Yelena didn't know what to say, so she just hugged me, when I fell to my knees on the ground.

- I can't take it anymore - I said over and over again.

- Yes you can - she said, but I didn't believe her

- I can't, I want it all to end, I don't want to be here anymore - I said without stopping crying - Please Yelena - I begged - I didn't feel anything when I killed him, I'm a monster - I explained