Just to find you

Breaking Dawn (part three: Ruby pov)

"You're right it does feel that way. It's kind of overwhelming but also beautiful." She said looking like she was talking to herself.

"Yeah it is. Plus being an empath sounds better. Edward had just thought of that name. So I don't think that's even a thing." I say chuckling.

"Though being a soul binder sounds cooler and slightly scarier. So maybe a soul empath would be a better name." Seiya said smiling at me.

"Yeah I like how that sounds better but you have no idea. It sounds like I could be a villain." I say shaking my head, still not believing I can do something like this.

"So what else can you do? Does it work with anyone or just mates?" She asked with excitement. I held up my hand, stoping her from asking anymore questions. I could feel all her happiness and excitement. Although I don't get the happiness part.

"I don't know love. I just found out so it's all new and I'm still processing it myself but I want to figure it out with you. How to control it because it's only working on us right now." I say taking a deep breath, wow this is a lot. If I was still human my mind would have imploded by now.

"Okay so let's figure this out together." Seiya replied, grabbing my hand. I looked down at our hands, distracted from my thoughts. I took my hand from hers and trailed it along her cheek.

"Can you feel this?" I asked her.

"Of course I can." She said watching me, confused.

"No I mean in here." I say pointing at myself. "Emotionally." I say. She was quiet for a while before she nodded.

"Yeah it's... a really strange  intense feeling. Like I can feel it physically, but also like I can feel you and how it feels to you as you touch me physically. Like being touched on the inside and out. Does that make sense?" She asked and I nodded.

"Yeah makes perfect sense because I feel that too, like we're feeling each other deep down to the core." I say removing my hand so I could concentrate.

"Okay so that's something." She said looking up at the ceiling ,thoughtful.

"I need to figure out how to turn it off." I say quickly, bringing her attention back to me.

"You mean the feeling?" She asked.

"No not just that. If I bonded our souls then I should be able to undo it." I say.

"True but how? Do you even know how you did it in the first place?"

"I think it's an emotional and mental thing. Edward said I probably triggered it emotionally." I say and she looked at me confused. "I think he meant that maybe that night in Japan, I fully opened myself to you which triggered that. So maybe I have to mentally and emotionally pull back." I explained.

"Okay let's try it." She nodded.

"Okay uh I guess let me concentrate." I say closing my eyes. I concentrated on how I feel about Seiya and how she makes me feel. I imagined pulling those feelings back to me. Than all of a sudden I felt this mental snap and I didn't feel like my everything was being shared with someone else's being. I opened my eyes and stared at Seiya. Her face held confusion but I didn't feel it coming from her.