Just to find you

Breaking Dawn (part three: Ruby pov)

"Ruby!" My mum's voice rang through my ear full of happiness and I smiled into the phone.

"Hi mum Merry Christmas." I say. I always wonder if my mum could hear the change in my voice when I talk to her on the phone. If she did, she never said anything.

"Merry Christmas to you too baby girl. I miss you so much! When are you and Seiya coming to visit me?"

"Soon hopefully. We've both been pretty busy." I say. Not a full lie. We were busy. We were training and trying to keep a group of vampires from killing us. Like me Seiya has been trying to expand her ability. Though we won't know until she feels any danger. So mostly it's been her spending hours on the roof, meditating. I sometimes join her after training with my own and I feel drained. Closing my eyes and not thinking, just letting our feelings flow through our bond, always helped. I guess that's was my way of meditating. I rarely let our bond stop flowing, only during training.

"I hope you really do. You say that a lot lately Ruby. I get pictures of you and her seeing different places and gifts on holidays but I actually want to see you." She said and I closed my eyes, hearing the sadness in her tone.

"I know mum. I want to see you too." I say. It's not a lie but it's not possible, not anymore, at least not face to face. The pictures she gets are mostly photoshopped using Alice's computer, but she's not here this time so she won't even get one this year.

"How are you two by the way? Is everything okay?" She asked and I laid my head against the window.

"Yes we're good. She's cooking a small Christmas dinner." I say. Another lie.

"That's good to hear. I'll cook for you both when you come to visit me and some of your cousins are coming by today." She said in a cheerful voice.

"That's good mum. Tell them I said hi and Merry Christmas." I say and listened to my mum update me on some family members. When I heard footsteps behind me, I turned to see Seiya looking at me curiously and I could feel her trying not to interrupt in our bond.

"Hey mum, I got to go. She needs my help with something." I tell her.

"Okay honey I love you."

"I love you too mum. Bye." I say before hanging up and continued looking out the window.

"Ruby...."

"I'm fine and no I'm not developing negative feelings about this." I say and smiled at her to prove my point and she stepped towards me.

"I can still feel that you're unhappy right now. I've actually been thinking....After this is over, we should go visit her." She said stopping in front of me. I raised my eyebrow silently ,asking her to explain. "Maybe we could do what we did with Bella's dad. You won't be able to tell her everything but we could say you got sick for a while and didn't want her to worry so-" she started but I shook my head.

"I lie to her enough as it is. My mum's a smart woman. She'll notice the similarities between us and she might not question it right away but later on when I don't age she'll ask questions and it'll be that much harder to lie." I say and she was quiet before she nodded. I could feel a bunch of emotions racing through her before I felt only one: regret. "Stop." I said glaring at her.

"I haven't done any-"

"Don't start feeling regret when you don't need to. I chose this and I don't feel regret but knowing you do hurts me." I say letting her feel how that affects me. She took in a heavy breath before she hugged me.