Mafia Society #1: Chained to the Ruthless Mafia Boss

CHAPTER 1

Chapter 1: Hurtful goodbye

DIFFERENT kinds of machine are beeping all over the room that makes me even more anxious. I felt like my heart stopped for a minute as I watched my dad gasping for his breath. I bit my lower lip to suppress the pain I'm feeling but it was useless.

"Take g-good care of yourself, Jeyk. P-please. . . d-don't. . . don't s-skipped meals o-okay? B-be healthy a-and d-don't e-eat unhealthy f-foods," dad managed to say it eventhough he was having a hard time breathing.

I smiled and nodded trying to hold my tears but my eyes betrayed me. Tears freely rolled down my cheeks as I suppress my sob not to escape on my mouth.

I just can't ignore the sight. It's a heart-wrecking scene.

How can I supposed to gave him a geniune smile if he was on a verge of dying? How? Paano ko ko mabibigay 'yon? I wanted to scream but I should not do it here.

The pain was excruriating and unbearable. It seems like I was stabbed by a hundred of spears right on my chest every seconds of my life. I can't stand seeing my beloved father on this kind of state. He was too weak, too weak to fight for his life anymore.

After those years of  fighting against cancer, naabot niya na ang hangganan ng kaniyang buhay. Buhay na paulit-ulit niyang hinihiling na sana ay tumagal pa sa mundong ito kasama ako. Ngunit, mas lalo itong pinagkakait sa kaniya.

Tears continuously rolled down my cheeks but my smile didn't fade away. I want him to see me like this. I want to assure him that I'm okay without him on my side. That I can live my life happily. That I can bear this kind of situation. I wanted dad to feel at ease. Eventhough it was the opposite of what I am feeling inside, even if I'll wear a fake smile in front of him.

"D-dad. . ." utal na sambit ko.

Mabagal niyang inangat ang kanang kamay kaya agad ko itong hinawakan at nilagay sa aking pisngi. Hindi ko na mapigilang mapahikbi  sa mga oras na iyon.

Wala na siyang lakas pero pinipilit niya pa ring magsalita. Mas lalo akong nasasaktan sa nakikita at pinigilang humagulgol sa harap niya.

Napakabigat sa dibdib pero kailangan ko 'tong gawin. Kailangan ko na siyang bitiwan dahil ako ang dahilan kung bakit pa rin siya nananatili, kahit na sukong-suko na ang katawan niya.

"Jeyk. . . my d-d-daug. . . hter. . ." mahinang sambit nito.

My heart was breaking into pieces hearing my name. Is this really the last time I can hear my name from his lips?

Hindi ko lubos maisip na magiging ganito si daddy. Na makikitang napakahina nito, ultimo sa paghinga ay nahihirapan pa siya.

He was always strong. Hindi makikitaan ng kahinaan sa katawan. Ayaw niyang nakikita ko siyang mahina kaya parang nasanay na rin ako na ganoon. Kaya naging dahilan iyon para hindi ko man lang kumustahin ang kalusugan nito kasi alam ko namang hindi siya mahina at tatablan ng mga sakit.

But then, I was wrong. I'm too confident that I would live happily with him, that he would live by my side until I got old but all of it was wrong. It was just all a wish.

I know, no one was perfect, but, for me, that word suits for my dad better. A father who was always by my side and keep on loving his only daugther. He was a father that almost everyone wanted to have.

"Huwag mo a-akong alalahanin. I will take good care of myself, dad. Susundin ko ang palagi mong binibilin sa akin. Dad. . . if you're t-tired, please. . . p-please l-let. . . l-let go. I-I'm o-okay, daddy. " I smiled and he smiled back.

Kahit hindi ko kayang sabihin ay nagawa ko pa rin.

Tila pinipiga ang puso ko ng sampung beses.

Dad, I can't let you go but seing you like this makes me feel guilty for having you here. You're fighting because of me. You did all you got. Sapat na iyon para sa akin. Naiintindihan kong hanggang dito ka na nga lang talaga.