Don't Blame Me

Chapter 14. Little Talks (Part 1)

"Quit spiraling and tell me what you're thinking," Kiara demands, reading me like a book.

"I just...I think you're wrong about Taylor..."I say unsurely, leaving out the part where Taylor almost kissed me.

"Why do I feel like you're deliberately forgetting to tell me something?" She smirks, tilting her head at me.

Damn, she's good. Well duh, she's my best friend for a reason.

I sigh, "When the game ended, Taylor and I waited until we were the only ones left in the stadium, so Alex Morgan can take us to the field and let us walk around for a bit. Alex had to go, so it was just us for a bit. I was telling her how great the day was and how it was hands down one of my favorites. I didn't notice it at the time....but she leaned in, and I think she tried to kiss me, but I turned my head because the arena security was telling us to exit there and not the way we came in, but Taylor ended up kissing my temple..." I explain, going quiet towards the end.

"You really are a dumb bitch aren't you, y/m/n." Kiara sighs.

"I just...I need Taylor to literally tell me those words, so I'm not reaching out of nothing." I say.

"What else happened?" She asks further.

"She came back to New York and Dakota and I hung out a lot for the rest of the week. She told me how she broke up with Chris and I asked her how she felt about it, and she said she was happy to do something new. Anyway, we went to this party and had a good time and drank..a lot..all the way to the point where we were telling each other about our failed relationships, and then she told me how she always wanted to try things with me..." I say softly.

"UMM TRY THINGS, HOW????" Key asks, sitting up straight, and looking at me with a stern but confused expression.

"She wondered what it would be like to date me...she said because we're already really good friends, that it would only get better....then she asked to kiss me..."

"AND WHAT DID YOU SAY??" she demands, facing her body to me.

"I let her, and I kissed her back..." I say, looking at my hands.

"Y/N, Y/M/N!!!" Kiara says, rolling her eyes.

"I don't know! It just sorta happened. I honestly thought that I'd want to be with her, but I was so repulsed by everything that I was actively avoiding her. I was smashed and when she asked to kiss me, I thought why not. I mean she's hot and knows me, she's been there for me, but in hindsight, it was a really bad idea" I try to clarify.

"Wait, you were wasted?" She asks, her tone shifting more seriously.

"Yeah. I mean I tried to pace myself-" I begin to say before she cuts me off.

"Was she?"

"No. She stopped drinking a few hours before I did..." I say quietly, knowing that Key is putting the pieces together.

She has a look of disgust on her face before her expression turns angry.

"So Dakota took advantage of you. That's what you're telling me?" She says firmly.

"Well, I don't think she-" I try.

"No, she did, y/m/n. That's what you just said. You were drunk, she wasn't. Sure she asked to kiss you, but you were in no state to give consent. I don't care what fucking bullshit you keep telling yourself, but she took advantage of you y/m/n." She yells, getting more furious by the second.

I stay quiet like a child being scolded by their parents.

"I know. I'm sorry." I say in a more defeated tone. I can't help but feel guilty about things.