i always try too hard with words.
its been a year and a half, almost two, since i've left mark. we talked for the first time today since the day i left him.
i thought he would be more calculating or more focused on asserting his power over me. i dont think he's changed, but i think he's fed up with himself, and unfortunately for him, he cant leave himself.
hes still just as depressed as when i was with him, maybe more so. this caught me off guard. i thought that maybe his life got just as good as mine has. everything is going right for me, but nothing is giving him the feeling of consistent happiness. except for mili, maybe, but he's screwing that up too. and he's aware of it, which is why it torments him too.
oh well.
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paroxysm - diary
Non-Fiction(n): sudden outburst of emotion-typically negative emotions. the diary (rant book?) of a girl that doesn't know how to articulate herself properly. it's technically a journal too but let's call it a diary.
