sincerely, amity

texting

She scrolled more.

August 13th
1:58AM

Luz
hey, r u up?

Amity
yeah. is everything okay?

Luz
yeah, just thinking

Amity
wanna talk about it?

..

i can come over if you want?

Luz
yeah, that would be nice :)

Luz smiled.

August 26th
1:28PM

Amity
*Attachment: One Image*
a picture of Luz, sitting in class, zoned out

Luz
ohmytitan gross. delete.

Amity
no >:)

Luz
*Attachment: One Image*
a picture of Amity behind Luz, covering her face from the camera

Amity
go away

Luz
stop u look good in that pic

Amity
oh thanks hahaa

6:38PM

Luz
LOL u made it ur pensta pfp??

Amity
you said i looked good D:

Luz
omt

Amity
shush

Luz smiled, but it didn't quite reach her eyes. Her heart panged. She scrolled back up to get one more look at the picture of Amity. She caught a hiccup in her throat, but forced it back down. She read on.

September 16th
2:46AM

*Facetime Call Ended. Time recorded: 3 Hours.*

Luz
damn HAHA

Amity
omt i need to go to sleep i blame u

Luz
u enjoy my company

Amity
i tolerate it

Luz
rude

Amity
:33

..

Amity
whatcha doing tmr?

Luz
laying in bed lol. why?

Amity
what if we laid in bed together and binged azura???

..

Luz
ok. yeah that's great, yep see u tmr goodnight

Luz chuckled at the memory. She panicked for a solid five minutes before she could even find the nerve to text Amity back.

The girl sighed, resting her chin in her hand. She scrolled down a lot further.

January 13th
11:27PM

Amity
i miss u

Luz
i miss you too, sweet potato. i'll be home in 3 days, tho :D

Amity
i know
too long D:

Luz
it'll go by quick. get u some rest, ill talk to u in the morning <3

Amity
okok ;(
goodnightsss

Luz cringed a little at the first stage talk, but it still warmed her heart. It couldn't heal the cold, empty space that Amity used to fill, though.

She scrolled more. She knew specifically where she wanted to go.

September 4th
2:37AM

Amity
are you awake?

Luz
yeah. everything okay?

Amity
i love you.

Luz
what?

Amity
i love you, luz.
i'm not getting better. i don't have much time left, but i wasn't leaving without letting you know that.

Luz
i love you so much ami

Amity
i love you
i love you i love you i love you

Luz
i love you
i cant tell you enough
i love you
i love you with every star in the sky

...

Amity
luz
i don't want to die

Luz
i know hermosa. i know
i would do anything to prevent it.
you'll be my favorite star, though.

Amity
promise me you'll live the life i don't get to.

luz
i promise
i'll come see you tomorrow morning
pls try to rest.
i love you

Amity
i love you too

That was the last text between the two. Amity died about a week after that. Luz turned off her phone and looked back up at the class, feelings of anxiety washing over her. Her heart ached and her throat felt like it was closing. She sucked in a shaky breath, looking down at her lap. Just as she closed her eyes to let the tears fall, the bell rang.

She immediately slung her bag over her shoulder and exited the school as quick as she could, audibly sobbing at this point. Her breathing was rapid, and it felt like the world around her was swirling into guilt. She made it just off the school property when her legs couldn't carry her anymore, she collapsed with her back against a tree. Her knees pulled to her chest, and she cried.

She cried like Amity had died all over again. She cried like she was staring at her body in a casket again. She cried like she was in a bathroom stall, having to live without her reason. She cried until she physically couldn't anymore, and maybe she felt okay. She felt lighter, but her heart felt heavier. She sat in front of the tree and stared out into the woods ahead of her. Her gaze softened, and she let out a breath.

She was angry. She was heartbroken, and sad, and angry. She banged her head against the tree before standing up, choking out another sob, and walking off toward the cemetery.

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rare a/n

this chapter is so short I am so sorry but I really wanted to throw this idea in there and I didn't know how uuuhgg

anyway also it looks like the dates repeat but its like different years

I did have the year next to the dates here and in the diary entries but personally I hate when years are in writing so I deleted that uighruiavivira