𝐔𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫 𝐘𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐔𝐦𝐛𝐫𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐚 || Tsukishima x reader story ||

Chapter 33 ~𝔻𝕚𝕒𝕣𝕪~

"Can we talk? Please," he asked. One part of me wanted to yank my arm out of his grip and maybe slap him, but Tsukishima had already done that for me. The other part wanted to hear him out, I knew this whole thing was not a miscommunication but I was praying that Kageyama was going to tell me it was

He let go of my arm as I nodded my head and we faced each other

He was about to open his mouth but I interrupted him "Actually, let me talk" I decided to go for neither of the options and give him a piece of my mind... or at least try "I really want to scream at you right now" I coward out "but I need to know, I need to hear you say that you don't have feelings for me, I know it's stupid to even ask but I need to hear you say it so I can move on," I said as I looked up at him seriously, he stared down at me with a blank expression "say it," I said as I urged him to tell me that he doesn't like me even though I knew he didn't. I looked down to the ground as his blank expression angered me "Please" I whispered, he still didn't reply "SAY IT GODDAMIT!" I said as my calmness finally broke

"I can't," he whispered and I looked up at him with wide eyes before stepping away from him

"Why?" I said angrily

"I know I'm with Cho but... I just" he started to say as he looked down to the ground shamefully, I didn't listen to him as I said "No! You don't get to do that to me, it's not fair!"

"Please I'm just..." he said but didn't carry on

"This is probably worse than what you did in the first place. You're so cruel, why can't you just tell me you don't have feelings for me? I need you too," I asked him desperately but he just stared at the ground, too much of a coward to look at me "You're such an asshole! You and Cho really deserve each other," I said madly and he looked at me sadly I went to walk out the gym but he stopped me

"Just calm down Y/n," he said as he tried to block me from leaving

"Calm down? Are you joking me right now? First, you play with my feelings to annoy someone because of some stupid little rivalry then you start fucking my best friend AND GUESS WHAT YOU CONTINUE TO DO AFTER THAT? PLAY WITH ME EVEN MORE! And you can't even let me move on by telling me three simple words, "I don't like you", so don't you fucking dare tell me to calm down! If you can't tell me what I need to hear after all of that then don't speak to me, I need space from you," I said as I barged past him, the cold air hit me hard but cooled me down, I didn't feel much of it as I kept walking and walking to scared to look back in case I would regret what I said, I looked down at my shaking hands and took a deep breath

I didn't return for morning practice as I spent that time crying in the bathroom, the tears will not stop after Saturday night. They just keep on coming, every chance I get I just cry, it's crazy! Every time I think I can't cry any more tears, I'm wrong.

My whole school day was filled with quietness, I didn't talk for the whole day. Yachi didn't talk to me and I figured it was because she felt too guilty and I had no classes with Hinata so I didn't get to talk with him. Lunchtime was EXTREMELY awkward, would you think I was lying if I said we sat in silence the whole time?

Hinata decided to side with me in the Kageyama situation so he sat with me and Yachi but even then it was still silence, I've never seen Hinata be so quiet before. He tried not to make it obvious that he was staring at my hair by looking away every time I looked at him, it kinda made me laugh to see how scared he got after I caught him

When the school day ended and I finally had practice, I had a very big knot in my stomach. I stared at the entrance to the gym and my nerves grew. It brought me back to that Friday when I was standing outside the gym, when a part of me was excited to see my favourite people, when I thought they were the only way to make me feel better. And here I am now three days later dreading to go in and see them.