- Aithel Kass Ibarra -
MAYBE I have thought of him too much. In which I shouldn't have.
I was longing for someone to take care of me, and oddly enough, I found it in Blard's arms. My day won't go without thinking of him.
Funny how I hated his guts, but I always try to find him using my two blurry eyes.
+++
TSANGGALA. DAHIL sa mga sinabi ni Jared, kahit sa school ay hindi ko maiwasang mapaisip. I can't even focus! And ever since I got to talk to Jared like that, Blard did not forget to run inside my mind!
It reminded me even more how he liked Forget Me Not flowers! All things that I knew about him, that may have changed after a lot of years, kept on coming back. Gusto kong manapak. I can't last a day without thinking of him, which is strange.
"Aith," Ayhana called me. "Tulala ka, ano'ng nangyari? Do you have any problem? You wanna talk about it?"
Tell me if those thoughts are disturbing you. I'm ready to listen.
Blard's baritone voice echoed my mind. Damn it! Kasalanan 'to ni Jared. Hindi ako ganito. Ang tagal kong hindi naalala 'yong tao. I wasn't even bothered no'ng birthday niya! Okay, I may be bothered but I was annoyed! Hindi ganito.
Ugh. This is Jared's fault, I swear.
"Aith," a hand waved in front of me, making me blink and relax my face. I didn't even realize na nakakunit na ang noo ko. "Okay ka lang? Sobrang preoccupied mo, ah? May prob?"
"Wala, okay lang ako. Thank you."
She gave me a questioning look. "Sure ka?"
I nodded.
She only gave me a shrug before continuing to write her fancy notes. Nahiya ang notes kong puro black at blue ballpen lang. Maayos ang sulat ko at maliit, at pabilog, pero kay Ayhana ay sakto lang, medyo pahaba at malinis tingnan. It slants to the right, too.
I bit my lower lip as I squeeze my eyes shut. Agad din naman akong napamulat nang makita ang mukha ni Blard. Tsanggala. Kasalanan 'to ni Jared!
My day did not go so well. Puro si Blard, si Blard, si Blard. Naiinis ako sa sarili. Kahit ano'ng tutok ko sa pag-aaral at pagbabasa ay pumapasok siya sa isip ko. Lalo na nang maalala ko kung gaano kabanayad ang haplos niya sa balikat ko no'ng umiiyak ako. His tiny taps on my head...
Remembering those aren't helping!
Nagbukas ako ng social media para sana matanggal 'yon sa isip ko, kahit sandali lang. Pero hindi 'yon nakatulong when he added me on Facebook.
Blard Lenton Abiz sent you a friend request.
Napasabunot ako sa buhok ko. Lalo na nang makita kung ano ang profile picture niya. It was him, wearing the hoodie that I gave him.
My focus has been shattered.
God. This guy will be the end of me.
I groaned loudly. Maybe I'm just confused. Or baka dahil... matagal ko siyang hindi nakita. Let's just say that... I miss him. He's my friend! No, scratch that. He used to be my friend. Walang masama kung mararamdaman ko 'yon, 'di ba?
YOU ARE READING
When Things Get Blurry (4k Series #1)
Teen FictionON-HOLD. Hello, this is penthelpen_, speaking. As much as I want to continue writing this story, I had come to the decision of discontinuing the story and will write another for practice - 'yong hindi heavy ang plot, because for now, I can't execut...
