"Kumusta ang puso?" Tanong ni Ate Aiks
"Mukhang kailangan mo to Ate Trish, pampatulog?" Dagdag ni Jill habang iniaabot ang isang can ng beer.
We are all in the living room. Mama, Kuya Geoff and Aya are already sleeping.
Hindi ko pa rin maiwasan na hindi maluha.
"Hindi ko alam kung anong tamang sagot sa tanong na yan, Ate. Gusto kong maging masaya para sa kaniya, para sa kanilang dalawa pero hindi ko pa ata kaya - hindi ko ata kaya."
"Maybe it is now the perfect time to do what you should have done 3 years ago. Time to move forward, Patty. Let go and be happy."
It has been 2 weeks since that talk we had. No social media updates from him. Well, he is not fun of social media after all. He just have one for the sake of having one. Nasa manila na siguro siya to celebrate the holidays with his parents. Siguro nga it is time to finally let go and be happy for him.
I promised Mama and my sisters that no more crying. I will spend the holidays with them - it has been a long time since we have celebrated without work getting on our ways.
January 2024
Buong bakasyon na akong hindi tinantanan ni James. So after a month of masusing pag iisip ay pumayag na ako na lumabas kasama siya. Wala naman masama. Single siya. Single ako.
***Ding Dong! Ding Dong! Ding Dong! ****
He said he will come pick me up at 7PM pero 5PM pa lang. Kakatapos ko lamang mag work out at hindi pa nakakapag shower.
"I thou.g.. ht.. 7....PM?"
Hindi na ako nakagalaw ng bigla niya akong yakapin. Mahigpit na mahigpit. The next thing I know is that his forehead resting on mine habang nakapulupot pa rin ang kaniyang mga kamay sa aking bewang.
"Trish, have to catch my flight. I will be back here in 2days." And he kissed me on my temple. Hindi ko na nagawang makapag salita pa pero alam ko na tumango ako sa sinabi niya. Isang mahigpit na yakap pa ang ibinigay niya bago siya tuluyang tumakbo paalis.
Ate Aiks : Patty, pakiulit nga ng sinabi mo? Nabibingi na ata ako.
Me: Ate naman e. Narinig mo naman ang sinabi ko.
Jill: Gurl, hindi ko rin nadinig. Pakiulit nga.
Napahinga pa ako ng malalim bago ulit sabihin sakanila ang nangyari na kahit ako hindi makapaniwala.
Me: Okay this is the last time. Carmelo came here hugged me and told me that he will be back here.
Jill: Sigurado ka bang hindi ka nananiginip kanina?
Ate Aiks: Okaaayy. Nakapag usap kayo? Anong sinabi mo?
Me: Hindi, natigilan na ako. Hindi ako nakapag salita. Sobrang bilis ng pangyayari. Niyakap niya lang ako humalik sa noo ko at nag mamadaling umalis kasi may hahabulin pa raw siya na flight.
Jill: Hindi kaya lasing si Carmelo? Or nag ssleep talk? Or bak—
Me: You're not helping. Byeee.
Napahilamos ako sa mukha ko after ko ibaba ang tawag. Still thinking of what just had happened. Habang nakatulala sa kawalan ay biglang naalala ko si James. Yes, si James I should cancel tonight.
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