Fading Smile [Ruikasa angst]

☆What did I do?☆

Angry Rui looks so intimidating but also very goofy

This one might be the shortest one I make, or the next one will be- idk yet 😞

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(Tsukasas Pov)

As soon as school is over I waste no time in going to phoenix wonderland. I usually changed out and take a bit of a break before going to practice, but I'll be eaten alive by the anxiety if I don't figure out what all the fuzz is about.

I walk into the amusement park, feeling slightly uneasy.. I look forward at the stage. To my surprise they're actually here! Rui, Nene, and Emu all seemed to be in a conversation, 'alright here's my chance' I say to myself and walk towards them slightly faster than I was walking before.

"Hey guys!" I say, trying to hide the fact that I was panicking with a smile. However, my smile quickly faded when I saw the expressions on their faces. Emu, the girl who's always happy and cheery is looking at me with sadness tainted all over her face. Nene however, wears a face of disgust and disappointment. And lastly Rui.. he looked mad at me.

"Is something wrong?" I say, it comes out shaky, I can't cover up my nerves anymore. "You guys been acting weird all day.. did I do something wrong?" I continue. Before I can open my mouth to say anything else Rui snaps. "Seriously?" Rui says in a harsh tone.

"So you're gonna pretend nothing happened last night huh?"
'what?..'
my voice raises a bit, matching Ruis tone.
"What do you mean?!"
"We know what happened, what you did. It's unacceptable"
he continued as I stand there, no idea what to say, no idea what he's referring to.
"I'm serious when I say I have no idea what you're talking about!!"
Rui gets visually angrier at that and he started yelling..
"OH ALRIGHT SURE YOU DONT, DOES THE NAME AKITO RING ANY BELLS??"
I flinch slightly at his raised voice
"Huh?! I stayed over at his house but nothing major happened—"
He cuts me off, it's scary seeing Rui this angry
"NOTHING MAJOR!? SERIOUSLY WHAT HAS GOTTEN INTO YOU??"
Tears are now threatening to spill
"WHAT DO YOU MEAN WHATS GOTTEN INTO ME?! IS IT BECAUSE I DIDNT MESSAGE YOU?? IF YOU MUST KNOW I LOST MY PHONE!-"
This can't be happening
"OH STOP MAKING UP USELESS EXUSES, OWN UP FOR IT ONCE AND FOR ALL CAN YOU!?"
please stop yelling..
"GOD WHY ARE YOU SO ANNOYING!? I KNOW YOUR EGO IS HIGH AND STUFF BUT THERES A THIN LINE BETWEEN BIG EGO AND BEING A NARCISSIST"
I don't even think he knows what he's saying..at least I don't, it still hurts though
"ARE YOU EVEN LISTENING TO ME!?"
stop just
"CAT GOT YOUR TONGUE? OR CAN YOU SIMPLY NOT APOLOGIZE??"
I had enough
I just turned around and ran.
I didn't look back once, what would be the point?

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My friends are mad at me and I don't even know why..how did I fuck up this badly? I felt tears build up in the corners of my eyes but I pushed them back. Please let this be a miss understanding, or at least let me realize my mistake.

(Ruis Pov)
I'm not sure why I said all those things to Tsukasa. But at the times being I told myself he deserved it. Although the more I look back on the incident from this afternoon.. Tsukasa did genuinely seem confused.. who am I kidding.
He's literally an actor.
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A very good actor in this case..

~amazong flashback~

"GOD WHY ARE YOU SO ANNOYING!? I KNOW YOUR EGO IS HIGH AND STUFF BUT THERES A THIN LINE BETWEEN BIG EGO AND BEING A NARCISSIST"
I didnt mean that٫ and i felt a tinge of regret after I said it.. Tsukasas expression made me feel guilty... but it should be him that feels guilty...

Even though I felt horrible after yelling at him, I couldn't stop. I was so angry. And I still am, but maybe I did go too far.

Ugh Rui what are you saying..

There's no excuse for it.
No explanation as to why either but
The solid proof was there
The image I received the night before strangely ingrained itself into the back of my mind.
Tsukasa kissing Akito
Why? What was the motive?
I'm not sure, and don't think I'll ever be.. perhaps it was out of spite? Either way it doesn't change what he did. It's so strange to me how he would betray someone who looked up at him, admired him, as if he was his own blood, his brother. Was he leading Toya on?
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Was he leading me on?

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I posted two days in a row!? No way

Gn or morning

If you play on jpsekai, I wish you best of luck on pulling the new cards ٩( ᐛ )و

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