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10 | love

if life is what i think it is

then i've already failed at it. so it's a good thing that it isn't.

good thing that even though i think i'll never love

i might end up loving so deeply it'll be breathless.

~ excerpt from 'mission failed successfully' of  'dreamclot' by Ajay-Kumar

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              // what's love actually? Is it my mother when she gives me a blanket in the middle of the night, or on the sidewalk when someone gives me a random smile? Let me go with the flow of love as you think. Love is when someone gives a simple smile, the heart flutters, the butterflies scream aloud or when your fingers crossed with each other, or when you care about small things and remember the small action. Or when on a random night, you remember their chilly words & have a smile. Or when your heart beats faster you approximately meet them, at the time nothing matters; only them. But is it love or an infatuation? Will it fade away? Maybe it will, when you won't get the same cheeky smile after the same joke, or maybe you get used to it that one day in a fine morning, you realise yeah, that's love, you love them. Is love an emotion? Or a commitment? I don't wanna get trapped in breathless love; where I can't find my breath. Maybe love is just a peculiar word. You describe it with intimacy, I find it emotionally intact. Mayhaps or maybe not, even though I don't wanna be in love; maybe one day I would love someone deeply. But I would never dare to bind them by my love. For now, I know they deserve better. Maybe I know, when it will come out as look; there are thousands better. They should be with them when I know in the long run, it will get hard to get accustomed with the flaws. But will it be enough to take the risk? To get thrown away or shattered the pieces I don't know. Maybe even some day, the feeling if I get; it would be forever buried under the six feet. //

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