Remember Me

Chapter 11

Lily's POV:

Yesterday I was at the AA meeting, but Ashley didn't show up. Hopefully, it wasn't because of me because if I'm stopping her from recovering then I would leave her alone.

I need to talk to her about it. I woke up around 6:00 and did my morning jog and came back to shower. I wore a green Nike sweater and blue cargo pants with black Air Force. I combed my curly hair into a bun to the back and headed downstairs and I gave my dad our morning AA talks. It was stressful having these talks on Mondays, but I know how important it was.

I drove myself to school and talked to a few friends. I admit that I lost a lot of friends due to our breakup and I guess they had to choose a side, and they chose Lucia.

Made sense due to the social rating me and Lucia had. I was very by myself and didn't really talk to people the way Lucia did. You know what enough about Lucia, I walked to the hall to head to my locker and I see Lucia walking towards me.

To say the least she looked different. I almost didn't recognize her, gosh she looked like Ashley. Why does she look like her? Does she know? Is this some type of payback?

I try to pay attention as I walked past her and made my way to my locker. To think we would have matured after the break-up only to go back to step 1. At least I don't see Luce with her.

I grab my subject books and head to my first class it was boring but understandable. I make my way to my soon-to-be favourite class, and I see Ashley drawing like usual. I feel my lips curving to a smile as i make my way to her until the same guy from the first day sits beside her making her look at him as a smile goes on her face.

Normally i would tell him to get away from her but i want to be a changed person.

A person she'll like.

I make my way to an empty seat in the back and I place my essentials on my desk. I couldn't help but watch her laugh at his jokes and how he fixed his posture around her as he got closer to her.

The sounds made my head hurt.

Why is he getting closer to her? This is absurd, i mean i never expected her to be into guys like him. He looked like a total hipster. He had a pink tank top which was obviously planned since it is cold outside. He hovered his arm around her chair which almost makes me lose it until someone said ''That right there is Noah Grayson'' I almost coughed as I escape my thoughts and look at who gave me that information.

He sat beside me as if I was his friend. He was I think Afro Latino with a low fade, a blue shirt and short pants. His eyes were dark grey and small dimples was shown as he smiled at me.

His eyes seemed genuine like he couldn't hurt a fly.

Why was he speaking to me?

''I don't really care'' I try to pay attention as I keep thinking about that name. Noah fucking Grayson. ''I'm pretty sure they are dating'' He whispers to me as I move my ear away from him.

''Who even are you?''

His grey eyes smeared at me as he smiles ''Apologies. My name is Felipe, and I'm Ash's friend'' Didn't know Ashley had friends and looking at the term Ash seems like they are pretty close.

''Lily'' I look at him, and he does a chuckle. ''I know'' He responds and of course, since I'm probably the talk of the school. ''Do you paint regularly?'' He asked, and I can tell he is trying to make conversation. ''Yeah,'' I lied straight to my teeth as I can tell he saw it. ''I can tell, you're lying from how clean your brush is'' He points at the brush I'm holding.

I can't help but laugh at how clean my brush is. Cleaner than an advertisement brush you see in markets. We talked for the whole period, and I learned stuff about him. He loves painting and that he was having a party tonight at his place.

He must trust a lot of people since he randomly decided to invite me to it. I had to ask if Ashley was going to be there, and he smiled at me and responded of course.

I noticed a little how Ashley was giving us small glances. I want her to know that I have feelings for her so bad and I know that she does too. She just won't admit it, and seeing how she is flirting her way to new relationships took changed in my mindset on how if she liked me or not.

I just want someone to be certain of me. I want someone to look at me and know that I'm the only one for them. Why is it so hard for me to find the right person for me? I always choose relationships that I always have to put in the work.

Maybe I was wrong, maybe I let my heart blindside me. Maybe this whole time, I'm the problem. Once class ended, I made up my mind of putting myself first. No more chasing girls that obviously don't want me.

She wanted me to leave her alone in the end and I always push and push. So no, I'm not gonna push again. If she wants me, then she's going to have to fight for me.