If Parallel Universe Exist (WANGGE)

"Assurance"

"Angge's POV"
"HOYYYYY! BRUHA!!; GUMISING KA!" Rinig kong sigaw ni Mahalia. Perwesyo talaga tong impaktang toh.

"Hoyyy!—" Binato ko sya ng unan na agad na ikinatahimil niya.

"Ang laki ng bunganga mo! Siraulo ka!" Bumangon na ako at tinupi ang kumot ko habang umupo naman sya sa tabi ko.

" Spill the tea." Diretso nyang saad na kinataas ng kilay ko.

"Spill the tea mo mukha mo! Gutom ako wag mo akong guluhin. Kainin kita eh." Inis na sambit ko.

"Go. Pwede mo naman akong kainin kahit magpinsan tayo." Ngumisi sya na agad kong kinasuka.

"Yuckkk! May taste din ako noh!"

"Ah kaya pala mga may lahi tirada mo. Angel and Wardo."

Binatukan ko sya at sinamaan ng tingin habang tumatawa syang nakaharap sakin. Jusko present lahat ng gilagid ng babaeng toh.

"Tigilan mo ako Mahalia." Tumayo na ako at bumaba para sana kumain pero sunod sya ng sunod sakin.

"Spill the tea nga. Anong nangyare kagabi. Bakit parang abot tenga yata ngiti ni Ward." Mahalia.

Minsan nagsisi akong naging pinsan ko toh.

"Wag mo akong galitin Mahal!"

"Ikaw lang yung  galit na mahal pa din tawag sakin." Pang-aasar nya. Lumalala na sayad sa utak nitong babaeng toh. "Hindi ako titigil hangga't di mo sinasabi ang nangyare kagabi."

Suminghap ako at pinwersang ngumiti kahit sa loob ko ay gustong-gusto ko ng sakalin ang babaeng toh.

"Fine!"

Flashback:

"Angge?" Tawag sakin ni Ward. Kasalukuyan kaming nasa veranda ng isang cafe ngayon habang nakatitig lang ako sa mga ilaw na nasa tapat nito. Kita mo ang  buong syudad mula dito.

"Ano yun?"

"Do you... Ever regretted having those feelings for me before?" Tanong niya sakin. Tinignan ko sya saglit at umiwas din agad ng tingin..I don't really wanna talk about this things but I guess there's no point on avoiding it anymore. I may forget it but I cannot escape from it.

" Sometimes... But majority ang hindi." Panimula ko. "There is always a one day of the past three years where I think about regretting falling for you. But everytime I thought of it I cannot think of any valid reason to hate you. I cannot hate you. Not because you hurt me but because I loved you. And somehow you made me feel like I deserve the world. Alam mo yung feeling na kahit wala kang ginagawa at wala kang pinapakitang motibo pero kusa akong nahuhulog sayo. Sa mata mo pa lang nalulunod na ako, sa mga tawa mo na weird pakinggan pero parang ang saya ko pag tumatawa ka. You were a stranger who became my friend and a stranger whom I gaved my heart with. You didn't become more. You stays my stranger that I have fallen inloved with. A stranger that is now a stranger who share some of the same memories with me." I smiled bitterly. " You... We're once my stranger that I wanna stay still a stranger. We lost it even when we never committed yet before. And I am afraid we will lost it too if we committ this time."

I paused and look at her. Gosh, ayan na naman yang mga mata nya.

"Ikaw? Do you regrett it?" Tanong ko. And this time sya naman ang umiwas at nagbuntong hininga.

"I do." Saad niya.

So nagsisi nga sya na nahulog sya sakin?

"I do regrett that I was so afraid that time. I was so afraid to take risk. I was so afraid to explore the world, to know my feelings, to get to let you feel how it feels to love me. I deprived you to fall for me but I just pushed you to fall deeper. I never regretted that I have fallen for you. There is not a day that I will regrett it. Because you were the best thing that happened to me. You showed me how to love again. How to get jealous again, how to see beauty in the dark. I was afraid to have Kyle replace. I was afraid the he will not forgive me if I fall for someone new because I made a promise to him. I made a promise to a dead person that I lose to make a promise to the person who really love me. I lose you. And then I lose myself. When you were gone I was so afraid to face the world. To face reality, to face failures. I was afraid to make a move because there is no "YOU" that will tell me if I am doing the right thing or if it is the other way around.  I got scared. And that's the thing that I regretted the most. Being scared is losing you. "