If Parallel Universe Exist (WANGGE)

"Torned"

"But I can't... I can't."

Her smile suddnely fell down. And I won't say na seeing that beautiful face in pain is not hurting me. Nasasaktan din ako. Maybe the pain we feel is different but I am also suffering as of the moment.

"Why? Why Angge?" Tanong niya sakin habang nangingilid ang mga luha sa mata niya kaya dali-dali kong  niyapos ang mukha niya.

"Please don't cry....please wag Kang umiyak. Nasasaktan din ako." Saad ko habang pinupunasan ang mga luhang  nag-uunahang bumagsak sa mga mata niya.

"May iba ka bang mahal?" Tanong niya sakin. And I can't answer her questions.

"Silence means yes right?... So Meron nga?" Tanong niya ulit.

"I'm sorry." Sagot ko at yumuko. Sa totoo lang hiyang-hiya ako sa kanya ngayon. She did everything to make me say yes but I just can't force myself to love her kasi mas masakit ang lokohin.

"Sino? Tell me... Sino Angge?"

Nanatili akong nakayuko uanggang sa magsalita siya ulit.

"Si ward ba?" Tanong niya kaya napaangat ang mukha ko at tinignan siya.

"I'm sorry...it's just she's the one who make my heart beat from the very beginning. Kung alam mo lang kung gaano ko hiniling na sana ikaw na lang ang una kong nakilala para sana ikaw na lang ang minahal ko pero hindi ko pwedeng baguhin ang nangyare na Angel." Sagot ko habang pumapatak ang mga luha. Hindi ko na iyon napigilan kaya hinayaan ko na lang na pumatak.

"It's not my intention to fall inlove with Ward, I'm so sorry Angel but I can't love you more than a friend. I can't give you the love you deserve. I'm sorry." Saad ko. "Araw-araw hinihiling ko na sana ikaw na lang, na sana ikaw na lang ang minahal ko at hindi si Ward because Ward never do the things you do. Wala siyang ginawa pero nahuhulog at nahuhulog ako ng mas malalim araw-araw. The more I stop my feelings the harder I fall. And now I can't find my way on how I can unlove her. Because I can't... I can't unlove her, I love her Angel. Sorry... Please forgive me. Please wag kang umiyak." It kills me seeing Angel crying all over me. Masakit.

"Alam ko naman kasi yun eh... Alam ko na sya ang gusto mo but I push it through because I wanna find out if you can also have feelings for me kaoag pinursue kita but I was wrong. I jumped on the wrong conclusion, I was never prepared for anything I risk it all for you Angge... Only for you. At hindi kita masisisi... Ward is lovable and is worthy for your love."—Angel.

"Your lovable Angel, don't say you are not. " Saad ko.

"Then why can't you love me?" Tanong niya sa akin kaya huminga ako ng malalim.

"Because sometimes we can't force our heart to love someone else when we know we are inlove with someone else who is not the one who wants us. Nagkakagusto tayo sa mga taong iba din ang nais na wala sayo, at hindi natin madidiktahan ang mga puso natin para itigil ang pagmamahal na yun. Because love is not just a game, it is a survival of hearts. The deeper you fall, the harder the struggles that revolves in that relationship."  I have a deep sigh.

"I'm so sorry Angel... I love you, but only for a friend I can't give you more. I can't force my feelings, and also pag pinilit natin... Mas masasaktan kasi lalabas lang na parang ginagamit lang kita. Please Angel, get over me, maybe not now but soon."Sagot ko at palakas ng palakas ang hikbi niya kaya tumayo ako at niyakap siya.

"I'm afraid I will lose you because of my feelings."—Angel

"Shhh... Stop it... You won't lose me. Mas ako pa nga ang natatakot na mawala ka sakin eh, natatakot ako na mawalan ng isang kaibigang Angel Grace America. I don't wanna lose you like this Angel. Atleast not like this." Bulong ko habang hinahalikan ang ulo niya.

"I'm sorry." Bulong ko habang hinahaplos siya. "I'm sorry Angel."

"Is ward aware about what you feel?" Tanong niya kaya umiling ako. "Why didn't you tell her?

"I don't even know if she feel the same." Sagot ko sa kanya at ngumiti ng mapait.

"Ang swerte niya, sya ang mahal ng taong mahal ko. Sobrang unfair lang kasi wala nga siyang paflowers eh. She never even gaved you bouquets everyday." Saad niya.

"Love is blind Angel. But my love never gets blind for you. I'm sorry." Saad ko ulit.

"Pero remember this Angge..." Inangat niya ang ulo niya. "The moment Ward hurts you, I won't hesitate to take you away from her. Aagawin kita sa kanya pag sinaktan ka niya at once naging  akin ka hindi na kita ibabalik. Tandaan mo yan Angge."

Saad niya at yumakap ulit sakin. Nanatili lang akong tahimik hanggang sa  napag-isipan na naming umuwi.