I wanna cry. I wanna die. I wanna die crying my heart out. And I wanna kill everyone around me. Yeah, I definitely wanna commit homicide as well as suicide. It's final, everybody should die.
That's what I think all day. That's what my family has made me. A monster. A self depreciating monster who wants to kill everyone, including myself.
How can your own family do that to you? I son't know. I just know that they did. And I hate them for it. I hate how they took my free spirited happy self away from me and replaced it with this depressed self loathing devil l.
But at the same time, I love them. They are my family after all. I hate the fact that i love them still. That i'll always love them no matter what they do to me.
And that is what's gonna be my absolute downfall. Or if I'm exceptionally lucky and God has mercy on me, something that will bring me to the top of the World.
I hope it's the latter. But with my luck, i wouldn't keep my hope up.
ŞİMDİ OKUDUĞUN
Apricus Through The Dark
Genel Kurgu"I don't give a shit if you are dead or alive. You are just a waste of space and money."......Those were the most repulsive words I'd ever heard from my father. And I'll never forget them. I'll always remember his manipulative and emotionally black...
