UNFINISHED SYMPHONY (Hiatus)

Two point two five (2.25), ALERT!

UNFINISHED SYMPHONY
©Anneriche

SERIES NO. 28

Two point two five, ALERT!

I can't fall a decent sleep. So I started to meditate and take some glimpse in the mild dull night sky and to the glimmering stars above. At first I don't have any intention to stare at those though, I did it. Later on, something strange invades my uneasy mind while I'm still gazing the stars intently. It was about what happened earlier. I do meditate every bit of it and I guess I'm a damn, criticizing by his own consence. I really feel I committed hard mistakes and I can't resist it. My mind is unclear and uncertain. I can't think of anything, but that.

I encounter lots of enthusiastic, out-of-the-box, uncontrolled and indecent ladies while I'm staying in New York, U.S.A. and during that old time, I was studying my Music Lessons there. Ladies were too wild. They even kiss me unexpectedly and take good times with me occasionally and I didn't complain about it. Its okay with me but I just don't get their point when they were doin' it. I think that in this way, I can forget Christine but it had no effect. I still love her until I moved on by my own.

I'm not offended about what that fierce ladies we're doin' until this day come. Today is really different, there is something in me that seem to bursts in pain. May bigla na lang kumirot. I don't know which part is aching. I can only determine its threshold...

Limitless...

Sobrang SAKIT...

The kiss is passionate and soft but somewhere in me, that tells me, 'its a sin'. Mali ito. May kung anong pumipigil sa akin kanina para gantihan iyon. Parang isang malalang krimen yung ginawa ko kanina, ni wala man lamang akong magawa para ipagtanggol ang sarili ko, pero kanino?

Kay Melody na walang alam?

Kay Peachy na walang pakialam?

Mukha namang wala lang sa kanya pero bakit ang laki ng epekto sa akin? Do I fall for 'her'? Do I love 'her'? Is this infatuation or true love? Sino ba sa kanila 'yung 'her' na tinutukoy ko? Ang nakakalungkot, eh hindi ko rin alam!

Ni hindi na nga ako makapag-isip nang maayos. I feel damnly destructed. Nalilito ako. Ngayon lang ulit ako nakadama nang ganito sa buong buhay ko.

Before, a girl came, ipinangako ko sa kanya na poprotektahan ko siya simula nung ikabit ko sa kanya ang kwintas, pero bigla na lang siyang nawala. Siya ang isa sa mga dahilan ng pagbabago ko ngunit hanggang ngayon ay wala pa akong ideya kung nasaan siya until I decided to end my journey of finding 'her' this was when Christine came, my life was a huge circle, rotates on its own, mundane, dull and helpless. Later on, she left me ruined and shattered. Balik ulit sa ganoong sitwasyon.

Malungkot ulit ako..

Mag-isa..

Parang ordinaryo lang naman ang lahat, pati na rin ang sakit.

Kaya lang biglang dumating si Melody. Isang kaibigan na nagpakita sa akin na magiging okay lang ang lahat kahit pakiramdam ko ay hindi na. Tapos dinagdagan pa ni Peachy na sumira sa ulo ko. Ngayon, nalilito na talaga ako...

Sino ba talaga?

Ang manhid at inosente bang si Melody na sa tingin ko ay walang interes sa akin bukod sa friendship o ang out-of-the-box at totoong taong si Peachy na hindi ko mawari ang gusto?

Dahan-dahan ko nang binuksan ang pinto papasok sa kwarto ko nang mapansin kong may mga papel na naman na nagkalat sa study table ko.

"Tsk, si West talaga." Napabulong ako.