My Best friend's Sister (GxG)

Feeling normal

"That concludes today's lecture," The professor declares pulling me out of my empty thoughts. 

Everyone rises from their seats around me causing me to sigh before doing the same. 

I exit the lecture hall with the group of students before heading back to my apartment. 

The walk drags by slowly as I finally enter the cold building. 

I hop on the elevator as I click my floor number forcing the elevator to shoot up. 

Once it reaches the floor it dings causing me to exit the elevator.

I type in the code on the touch screen lock of the door, causing the it to click. 

I push it open as I enter the spacious modern apartment. 

I sigh slightly as I enter further into the living area. 

Chatter and laughter echo throughout the apartment, and I quickly notice Journee, Eva and Luca all seated at the kitchen island. 

I grab a water from the fridge as the room suddenly grows quiet. 

I furrow my brows as I turn around from the fridge.

"You can't keep going silent whenever I enter the room. It's weird," I declare. 

Ever since the incident in Miami, the dynamic has been off.

I mean I'm not my usual self and I admit that, but their behavior isn't helping. 

After that tragic night I haven't felt the same. 

I don't feel like me. 

I feel like an imposter in my own body. 

And I pushed everyone away because of it. 

I mean once I got back into town after that night I just randomly decided to move into Journee and I's shared apartment at Duke. 

Partially because I didn't want to face anyone. 

If I had to face them then I'd have to address the situation. And well... I just- I just can't right now. 

Also I wanted to take my mind off of what happened so I used moving as a distraction. 

So that day when I arrived home I immediately started packing my stuff up. 

I didn't rest. I didn't eat. I didn't take a moment to even breathe. 

I just packed as my concerned mother helped me. 

She knew I was avoiding what happened, but she let me. 

She knew avoiding it was the only thing keeping me sane. Keeping me together. 

The group chat was blowing up once everyone got back. 

They were concerned considering I left early for Duke. 

I just answer with a brief, 'I felt productive so I came early.'

After that, I put the group chat on do not disturb. 

I knew I couldn't avoid my friends much longer considering Journee would be moving in a week later, and Luca and Eva would be moving in down the hall from us. 

Surprisingly when Journee arrived at Duke for move-in day she didn't mention what happened. 

She didn't ask once, "Are you okay?"

Though it was obvious that she wanted to say something.

But I felt thankful anyways. I felt thankful to feel like everything was somewhat normal again.