Pretty Boy

Every Smile You Fake Is So Condescending

Opening my laptop, I tried to power my screen and I couldn't help but feel surprised as a link had already been sent through my insta. It's not Haley, though. It's from Hogan himself. I opened his message and clicked the link to see what it was. My brows furrow when it leads me directly into a solo video, not even on the Highspeed site, and I settle myself into deciding if I should watch it or not. 

I play the video, not knowing what it is about, and am shocked when I see Hogan displayed on screen. He's seemingly tied behind a chair and looking confused. Seconds later, a girl starts walking towards her, high in latex and trailing her way towards Hogan. My mind is beating so loudly and my body shivers with nervousness as to what's about to go down.

The girl starts kissing him and his body, making me more infuriated. I can't bear to watch it even if I have the strength to, though I need to see what it is about before I can raise my assumptions. She tears open Hogan's clothes and pulls his pants down, revealing his full nakedness.

My eyes were drawn to his exposed state and I tried not to squirm with every heavy feeling I could feel. He's being seduced into something and molested just because of something I did. I doubt he even gave his consent to them. I'm breaking into shattered pieces, and my skin crawls with unsettlement as the video progresses. It shouldn't have gone to this, and seeing him in this state breaks my heart, especially since he's unconscious of what they're doing. I feel like puking, honestly.

The sight of the girl and him makes me sick to my stomach. She then strokes his dick and applies something to it, making it hard seconds later, though it doesn't stay up long. My mind baffles on continuing and my eyes shut while I hear the noise they are making. The girl sits on him without even using any contraception and my stomach feels sick with the sight. I quickly close my laptop, not bothering to end the video, and rush to the bathroom.

My body feels weak and my stomach is acting up from skipping my meals. I immediately open my mouth, feeling the taste of disturbance escaping my lips as my head wraps around everything I just saw. It shouldn't have led to that, though all I could do was sit and watch the cruelty of its temptation. His body looks vulnerable with every touch she gives, and my heart feels like it has been stabbed from seeing it.

Being with Hogan has just now been proven to be a horrid idea, and though I would want nothing more in the world but to have him, everything will just push us into something like this. Nothing has come good from being with him, and people will do everything to break us apart. I can't afford to let Hogan be broken down with how people think of me. He deserves more, and if we continue, nothing will ever stop. Happiness comes in different ways, and right now, it feels more than easy to resist.

My head jerks back after I finished letting my disgust state out, and my eyes begin to water with every thought of how he must've felt. He had no sense of what was happening yet, yet they still took advantage of him. I've felt that before, and I can't bear for Hogan to feel the same. We're a mess and crooked now. It may have been the happiest time being with him, yet this has come to something more unfathomable. I can't handle seeing him being taken away just because he's with me.

I pick up my pace once again and stand where I was seated. I then head out of my room and through the door to head to somewhere I know I can let my emotions out. Emotions that I need to be done with.

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Biking my way through trees of undecided greens, I make my way to the woods and stop once I reach a clear, beautiful lake.

The sight is picturesque, and the water looks fluorescent from the sun's light. It calms my veins from trailing my gaze to it, and the feeling of quietness deafens my ears.