Need Love

Chapter 15

.Song: Give me love by : Ed Sheeran

I wake up to notice my brother staring down at me. I look around as I still see Luke in my arms. Us still hovered in the corner of my room. He's asleep, but he shakes.

"And who the fuck is this." He spats. Anger slowly rising.

"Go away, Derrek." I say lowly, trying to not wake Lucas.

"I should have a right to know who is in my damn house. A house I live in!"

I shook. He yelled at me. He'd never yell at me.

"Oh so your my father now? Yell at me to scare me, beat me to I'm senseless. One whose love had disappeared."

"Don't you EVER LABLE ME AS HIM YOU UNDERSTAND!" He had gotten mad. Face was turning red.

"Say it, don't spray it."

I could tell I was making him mad. He pointed at me.

"You'll regret that. No one IN A MILLION YEARS," He chuckled "WILL EVER LOVE YOUR PATHETIC SELF!" He said harshly.

It had felt like someone stabbed me in the stomachs. No in my heart. He's right. To think Derrek had ever loved me, to think that Lucas will love me. I'm so pathetic to even fall for it. To think that anyone would ever. This is just a silly game huh? Just to make me realize how pathetic, worthless, and lonely I am. But I already know that. I cried silently. I unwrapped my arms around Lucas. I covered my eyes with my hands, elbows propped on my knees as of they were digging into my skin. I wanted to disappear badly. I wanted to die. To release all this pain.

Derrek left the room and shut the door with a loud thud.

I continued to shake. Violently. I just knew how right they were.

Who would ever love someone so worthless as me. Just who?

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"Hey you." Lucas said as he kissed my neck.

"Hey." I said hint of sadness.

Lucas looked straight into my eyes. Eyes full of worry. Like he felt sorry for me.

I felt sorry for me too.

"Look Diaz. I'm sorry I slapped you, you know I didn't mean that. Everything I've done to you, I didn't mean to do that." He said a little below a whisper.

"Oh, no its not that. Just.... Never mind." I say as I begin to walk away.

People who don't love you, don't chase after you.

I heard no foot steps from behind. My heart sank.

He didn't love me. No one will.

I just needed to keep my distance. I don't want to fall for someone who didn't feel the same.

But them someone grabbed my arm and slammed my back against the lockers. And kissed me. As if they'd think I'd fly away out of their arms in a second.

I opened my eyes.

Lucas.
Lucas.
Lucas.
Lucas.
Lucas.

It was him. Lucas came after me.

I kissed back just as roughly. Then he pulled apart, we both gasped for air.

We stared into each others eyes. Not saying a word.

I kissed him again, never letting him go.

I can't let him go. Not now. Just yet.

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