~Paige
It's a given that every great romance must end in a tragedy.
For me and Calum that unfortunately means that one of us is going to die. I never wanted any of this to happen. I never wanted to fall so madly in love with a person all for that to be gone in a heartbeat.
I guess that's just what happens when you're in a relationship that is more than perfect. Calum is the person that lights my fire, keeps me going. I have never felt so safe and reassured that everything was going to be okay until I found that safety in him.
But most importantly, Calum is the person I imagined spending the rest of my life with. When I picture my future all I can see is him. He was going to be the first person I see when I wake up in the morning, the person I was going to lay in bed with and talk about everything all day, the smile that would be on the other side of my camera forever.
"Did you know that I imagined having two or three kids with you?" I tell Calum as a single tear slides down my cheek and lands on his shirt.
For the past few hours it's just been us in the hospital room. The two of us stayed cuddled up on the small hospital bed, talking, laughing, crying, and opening up about the life we have always envisioned living together.
It's so subtle, but Calum sniffles and tightens his grip around my body before speaking, "I always imagined waking up early every morning to make you breakfast, to then come back into our bedroom and kiss your pregnant belly." He breathes in heavily, clearly trying to suppress his crying.
With every vulnerable word that spills from both of us my heart breaks a little more. I bite my lip and close my eyes in attempt at keeping my tears inside, but it's impossible. Calum trying to keep it together as he talks about the future we could have had breaks my heart into a million pieces.
Life is so unfair.
"We were going to have beautiful children together." He says so sadly that it makes me lose control of my emotions and allows the sob I've been holding in to finally escape.
Calum rubs my back comfortingly, pressing kisses to my forehead and head over and over again, mumbling as he does so, "I'm so sorry baby. I wish that there was a way I could fix this. God, I feel like I failed you." He cries.
I do my best to compose myself and sit up to look at him. I place my hands on his chubby cheeks that I love so dearly, "There is nothing either of us can do Calum." I tell him, our sad eyes looking back at one another. "And you didn't fail me. I don't want you thinking that for a second."
A few more tears slip from his eyes and my thumbs quickly catch them and wipe the moisture away. "All I wanted was for you to be there for me," My lip begins quivering again but I fight through it to tell him this. "And you did all of that and more."
Calum places his hands behind my head and gently pulls me towards him, bringing us together to share a passionate kiss, the most emotional kiss we've ever shared. We press together with tear stained cheeks and wet eyelashes, pouring all of our heart and soul into the other.
"I love you so much." I mumble against his lips before we kiss again.
"M'always gonna love you, baby." He says against my lips. "Always."
A piece of me feels like it has already died, but as Calum and I share a moment of passion together it's as if we're both trying to mend each other's fragile hearts, as if a piece of him is also dying and I have no idea how to fix it or make it better.
"Calum." I say out of breath.
"Hmm?" He hums and continues kissing me.
"Calum?" I slightly pull away this time to get his attention.
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Ghost Of You | cth
Fanfiction"Promise me you'll be fine?" She said as the two of held onto each other's hands for dear life. "I'll be just fine." I said kissing her hand and reassured her through my tears.
