New Beginnings

Chapter 11

CALLIES POV:

Why was I so jealous to see Arizona kissing that women? I shouldn't feel that way. We broke up a long time ago and I am over her, at least I thought that. The last months in New York with Arizona were amazing. With her, it finally feels like home. And then it hits me, I always wondered why I never felt at home in New York, even when Sofia was here with me, there was always something missing.. Arizona. Arizona is my home and she always will be but I screwed up and she will never forgive me. Seeing Arizona kissing that women helped me realize what I already knew... that I fall in love with her again.
This is all messed up. I have to forget about last night, the memory with arizona kissing that woman is still hunting me. I decided to watch a bit TV to distract myself.

It was halfway though the film when I heard the door bell ring. I wonder who that could be. I am not expecting someone. I stopped the film and made my way to the door to open it. It was Arizona who looked a bit angry. Without waiting, she walked past me and let herself in. I looked at her and waited for her to say something, but nothing came. She just stared at me. "Is there something I can help you with?" I then said to make the first step.
"You don't get to do this Calliope" Arizona said in a harsh voice.
"Do what?" I was a bit confused.
"Be jealous" she answered while directly looking in my eyes.
"I am not jealous" I tried to defend myself while obviously lying
"You can't fool me Calliope, I know when you are jealous"
Of course she does.. she knows me better than anyone else

"Listen.. I.." I tried to speak but she cut me off. "YOU DON'T GET TO BE JEALOUS OF CARINA. YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO BE. YOU LEFT ME AND NOW ALL OF A SUDDEN YOU ARE JEALOUS" she yelled at me with a mad look in her eyes, but I can also see something else. I just can't figure out what it is.
"I ran after you yesterday and the first thing that came to my mind is to apologize which is weird because we are not together and I can kiss who I want" she continues and I know she is right. "But then I realized that I have nothing to be sorry for because you were the one who left me. IT WAS YOU, SO WHY THE FUCK ARE YOU JEALOUS?" Arizona asked while screaming again. I didn't know what to say so I just kept quiet.
"ANSWER ME" she demands.
"Because I...I am" I tried to say something but nothing came out.
"BECAUSE YOU ARE WHAT?" she yelled again with a furious look on her face.
"BECAUSE I AM IN LOVE YOU, GOD DAMNIT ARIZONA" I screamed back at her. There it was, it was out and I can't take it back now. I looked at her and tried to read her face but it was motionless.

Minutes past where neither of us spoke a word. I can tell arizona is shocked. I got slowly closer to her, until I stood right in front of her with our faces only inches apart. I could feel her breath on my face and this send a shiver down my body. I expected her to back away but she didn't.
"Because I am in love with you" I repeated and I laid my hand on her right cheek. I could feel the electricity. She closed her eyes, enjoying the contact. I kept looking into her eyes while slowly leaning forward until our lips met in a soft kiss. We didn't deepen the kiss but nevertheless it was magical and I felt millions of butterflies erupting in my stomach. I couldn't help but smile like a fool after we broke apart.. I wondered how I could survive all those years without her kisses. There is no one in this world who can compare to arizona and the things I feel when I am with her.. I will do everything I can to make it work between us because there is one thing I know for sure.. I am falling hard for Arizona Robbins and there is nothing I can do about it.