Forever In Your Eyes

Chapter 32.

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Hamza's pov

Suddenly, I felt my world just go upside down I feel so many mixed emotions. Standing here in front of the door that I'm so afraid to open it. My hands are cold like ice I can only hear my heartbeat and my rapid breathing, tight muscles, and feel like I'm on a drug a bad drug that going to kill me.

I feel so numb like my heart is beating I am breathing but the surrounding is stopped I can't hear anything. It hurts...

I don't want to feel this but I tried to stop the feeling, but it is getting worst. I hate when I get anxious... Things are going too fast more than I can handle I don't even know how this starts.

Am I able to talk with her?

I can't... How much I tried but I can't, this shit is more than anyone can imagine I don't love her I don't even like her why does it hurt I know what she has done to us why do I feel guilty it's not my fault that she is leaving...

I am standing here only because of Inayath if she wasn't here then I might don't even know what is going on here... People come and go. Should I just walk outside and never come back here?

I can't. I promised my Ayath.

"Hey... I'm gonna be here, right beside your side" she softly said and grabbed my hand.

"I know" I whispered under my breath.

I grab that metal door handle and slowly press it down. I walk towards the hospital room and saw someone on the bed I look back at Inayath she was giving me the warmest smile and slowly closed the door. She doesn't want to close the door but

She and I know, I have to do this alone.

When I look at my mother a sudden pit of guilt took me it was hard looking at her sleeping face even though she is sleeping she was so beautiful I let her sleep.

I look out the window and think about what should I talk to her about when she wakes up.

Should I just walk out?

Why do I want to run away? The only-

"Hamza?" The voice I heard after ages still sounds the same.

I move to face her. My heartbeat increase when I look at her pale face she doesn't deserve this...

She gives me her hand to grab and I did that and sat on the stool she sat on the bed and hold my face with her other hand "you have grown up" the tears were running down her face.

I really want to clean that tears but I didn't do that I just stare at her pale face.

"I... I'm so sorry"

I didn't say anything I just can't forgive her suddenly but I know I will forgive her one day.

"I know I have been the worst mom, no one does this to their child" she sobbed I didn't look at her I was just staring at the hand that she was holding.

"Why did you-" I couldn't complete my sentence it was hard to form words if I talk to her I will end up crying that's the last thing I wanted to do right now.

"I'm so sorry, I have never been happy after leaving you guys" she squeezed my hand

"Don't lie, I know you have" I can see the tears forming in my eyes.