ROMY | 18+ ✔️

CHAPTER 15

"Did order Chinese?" I ask

"Yeah, they delivered it sooner than usual, didn't they?" She asks eyeing the package in my hands and I nod. Then I make eye-contact with the deliveryman who seems relieved at knowing that the package was delivered to the right person. I smile at him and thank him and close the door.

"I ordered pizza too" I blurt out placing the food on the coffee table, I hear Cassie's loud laugh from my bedroom.

She steps out a few moments later in one of my comfy pajama sets. I look down at my work clothes that I didn't get a chance to change out of. I go into my room pick out a comfy pajama and walk into the hall and hear Taylor Swift playing. Not just anything, ten minute version of All Too Well.

I frown and see Cassie sitting on the sofa and humming along to the song. "Did Andy break up with you? " I ask crossing my arms over my chest. She stops humming and looks up at me, "Of course not. Just felt like some Taylor Swift" I roll my eyes, and sit down and we listen to the song in quiet, as the song finishes, I grab the remote from Cassie and play '22' by Taylor Swift and start singing along obnoxiously loudly with the TV making Cassie laugh and join in two seconds later and we belt out all the lyrics while shaking our asses to the beat. Just as the song comes to an end, the bell rings and I realize it must be the pizza-man and quickly open the door while Cass goes off YouTube on TV to pick a movie for us to watch and I close the door. I place the pizza on the coffee table and walk into the kitchen to grab some cutlery and I do so with quick precision, "Ro, Finding Dory or Tangled, I'm confused." Cassie bellows. I think for a moment before yelling back, "Tangled"

I hear a small laugh before she yells "Eugene's Hoe" and I laugh carrying the cutlery into the hall and set them on the coffee table and we begin to eat quietly watching the movie. We finish eating up after a while and we paused the movie to finish doing the dishes. It was peaceful, the house was quiet except for the sounds of dishes being cleaned and water running. Yet my mind was turbulent and  my heart was heavy. I sigh quietly and turn to Cassie who was drying off the dishes.

"Cass."

"Hm" Cassie hummed

This was it, now or never. "I slept with Marcus." I blurt out and continue washing dishes as if I hadn't dropped a bomb on her. I watch her from my peripheral, her head was still down, cleaning the dish that was in her hand. She cleans it meticulously and places it on the rack and turns to face me, in slow motion. I wince and finish cleaning my last dish.

"You what now, Ro?" She asks with an expression similar to my mother whenever I did something wrong.

"I-I slept with Marcus" I say quietly.

"Why Romy?" She's waiting for my answer

"There was this connection, Cass I couldn't ignore it, I tried so hard." I say and I feel my nose twitch. I just know I'm going to cry before this conversation is over.

"And now I feel horrible, our time together is glorious, and I feel like everyone else disappears when we're together but there's also a slight unease in my chest all the time, about how I'm wrecking his home. I make that choice every single time Cassie. I don't know if I'm strong enough to not make that decision. It's weighing me down, he makes me feel like how Andy makes you feel. And I'm not ready to let that go Cass." By the time I finish my speech tears are already streaming down my cheeks and Cassie rushes forward and wraps me in a bear hug.

"Romy I understand what you're trying to say, but I don't know if I can support your decisions if you continue to see him. You're an adult woman, you're more than capable of calling the shots in your life, so I will not interfere in this matter, but I sure hope to god you take the right decision Rom." She says seriously.

"So you won't be my friend if I continue seeing Marcus?" I question feeling like crying all over again.

"No, I'll always be your friend, we'll just never agree about this issue is all I'm saying." She says.

"I really like him, Cass" I say desperately. Cassie shrugs, "Where do you see this going Ro, Marriage? Babies? Growing old together? Forget all of that, you both can't even go out in public holding hands without causing a scandal."

I aggressively wipe the tears that fall on my cheeks, "Cassie, don't you think I know all of this, I wanted your help to make a decision. And you, you're not helping" I cry out.

"You already made a decision, when you decided to sleep with him Romy, there's nothing left to decide except for the question of you continuing with him or no. And from what I can see you're fighting pretty hard for a man who can't even love you publicly." The volume of her voice had risen by the end of it and I was full on sobbing by now.

"If you're expecting that I'll make your decision for you, I won't Romy. I trust you to take the right decision. I love you." She kisses my forehead and I sniffle lightly.

"I think I'm gonna head home and make up with Andy now, the poor guy is probably worried out of his mind" She says and goes into the hall to gather her things and I follow her quietly.

I open the door and she steps out of the apartment and looks at me and smiles softly prompting one of my own, as she's about to say something her phone rings and she mouths a 'sorry' and picks it up.

"Yes Andy? Yes I'm with Romy. No we didn't go clubbing. Are you feeling calmer now? Yeah I'll see you at home." She murmurs into the phone in a soothing voice. In that moment I was so jealous of my best friend for being in a healthy, adoring relationship while I was stuck in this endless cycle of happiness, pleasure and sadness.

She ends the call and gives me a brilliant smile and pulls me into another bone crushing hug and whispers, "Do the right thing Ro."

After she leaves, I lock the door and sit back down and press play on the movie when my phone lights up with a notification.

MARCUS: I'm thinking about you, my darling.

A simple text was enough to make my heart flutter. But I don't open the message and continue watching the movie and go to bed pretending everything in my life was alright, and that I hadn't fallen in love with a married man.

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