Game Recognize Game

27. Shoulda', Woulda', Coulda'

"SHUT UP!! IM NOT IN LOVE WITH HER, AND IM NEVER GOING TO BE IN LOVE WITH ANYONE. IF I WANT HER IN MY HOUSE THEN THAT'S WHERE SHE'LL BE. I'M NOT CRAZY ENOUGH TO FALL FOR A GIRL LIKE HER SO JUST SHUT UP AND MIND YOUR BUSINESS. IF YOU WOULD HAVE TAKEN CARE OF THE ISSUE WHEN SHE ROBBED YOU, THIS," I pointed all around the room,"WOULDN'T BE HAPPENING! i'D HAVE HAD MY MONEY, SHE'D BE DEAD, AND NOBODY WOULD BE GOING THROUGH THIS. SO SHUT YOUR FUCKING MOUTH!!"

   I hadn't even noticed but I'd gotten in his face while yelling. "Matter of fact, get out," I said, starring at him menacingly as he shuffled past me. "Sorry princess," I heard Poochie say behind me, "He's not interested," he continued before laughing until he slammed the door behind himself. I turned my head, knowing who he was talking to. My ears felt like they became stuffed and my heart beat slowed down. Ebony stood in the door frame looking dead at me, looking as if she'd cry any moment. "Jovani, Jyrell, go make sure he doesn't go back to that car," I dismissed them as I turned away from her and took a seat in my lounger. They both walked out silently, and when I looked up again she was gone. I felt even worse then I did earlier watching her get beat. Because I know I'd just hurt her ten times more than any beating she could take.

I'd notice Ebony's feelings had started changing towards me. She's been nicer and easier to deal with and I knew she'd begun to crush. Shit, I've had enough girls feeling me to know when a chick is starting to care but me and Ebony could never happen. She made good company, and would probably be a great parent but she doesn't need to like a nigga like me. I'm no good for her. I'd be bringing her into my family full of secrets, abuse, and death. She'd have to deal with my anger and I couldn't even think if I lost control around her or my kid. My point is, I'm not the guy a woman like Ebony should fall in love with. With that in mind I didn't even go check on her. Instead I went into my liquor cabinet, grabbed a bottle of Tequila, went to my room.

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           When Nikko left I made sure to lock myself in my room and very much away from Poochie's ass. I even got a nice nap in before the slamming of doors could be heard. I turned over and looked at the digital clock on the night stand and saw it was close to ten. First thing first, I wanted to know what went on tonight. Not only to know what happened to Kollins but to make sure Nikko was okay. I opened my door quietly and took the hall Nikko showed me to the living room where I heard the loud voices coming from. I could hear Poochie for the most part, but then I heard another familiar voice."Poochie just shut up aright," someone spoke roughly. "Be quiet? Are you fucking kidding me! My cousin fell in love with a striping ass, set up, phony whose probably playing him as we speak," Poochie yelled. Now usually his words I'd ignore but that kind of hurt. Was Nikko in love with me? No, there was no way. He was doing all this out of the safety of our unborn child.  I took a step forward about to defend myself and Nikko when he spoke up himself.

             "SHUT UP!! IM NOT IN LOVE WITH HER, AND IM NEVER GOING TO BE IN LOVE WITH ANYONE. IF I WANT HER IN MY HOUSE THEN THAT'S WHERE SHE'LL BE. I'M NOT CRAZY ENOUGH TO FALL FOR A GIRL LIKE HER SO JUST SHUT UP AND MIND YOUR BUSINESS. IF YOU WOULD HAVE TAKEN CARE OF THE ISSUE WHEN SHE ROBBED YOU, THIS," he paused, "WOULDN'T BE HAPPENING! I'D HAVE HAD MY MONEY, SHE'D BE DEAD, AND NOBODY WOULD BE GOING THROUGH THIS. SO SHUT YOUR FUCKING MOUTH!!" My feet stopped when I reached the entrance way. It was like an outer body experience. Inside I was dying and falling apart realizing Nikko would never love me and probably wished I was dead. Who am I even kidding, if I were dead they wouldn't all be here. He was right, but we had been doing so well. For a second I even thought he was really connecting with me. My whole life has been full of mistakes and false beliefs though, so this was no different.

           "Matter of fact, get out," Nikko told, Poochie. Poochie scowled before he saw me then he smirked and walked my way.  "Sorry princess," Poochie spoke happily, "He's not interested," he laughed until he walked out slamming the door behind him. My eyes never  left Nikko  though. If I even blinked the tears would come falling. When Nikko looked at me it felt like time slowed down.     His face showed no trace of emotion and I could see the old Nikko. The one who didn't care about his actions or how it would effect others. "Jovani, Jyrell, go make sure Kollins doesn't go back to that car," he spoke in a dry tone before taking a seat and not looking at me anymore. Jyrell patted my shoulder on his way out and the air went stale. It wasn't long before I ran to my room and paced back and forth trying to control my emotions.

I didn't want to cry. I couldn't allow myself to cry. I'd been through too many worse things to sit here and cry about this. Some words... words that hurt worst than Kollins beating me, and leaving. It hurt mostly because I'd wanted to die on so many occasions but now I had a reason to live, and I felt like I shouldn't even be here. I Shouldn't have pulled Nikko into this, and I needed to get away from him as soon as possible. I sent a text to Kinzy and packed most of my things. I started to write a note but decided against it, because he'd probably be glad to see me gone. I'd be out of here by morning.

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Well that's it for this chapter. Until next time you guys vote it up and Comment Down. I'll probably update again later in the week, until then let me know how you feel about this chapter. Do you think Kollins will get away or get caught? Where do you think he is going? Did Nikko say that out of rage from Poochie's assumptions or because of his own family problems? Do you think he meant it in the way Ebony is thinking? Do you think Ebony is overreacting? Will she still love Nikko after this? Let me know what you feel in the comments. I'll be waiting to hear from you all my loves.