𝐭𝐦𝐧𝐭 𝐨𝐧𝐞𝐬𝐡𝐨𝐭𝐬

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The boys were all there, staring at me with wide eyes and slightly-opened mouths like they had just been caught up in something that they weren't ready for. Even Mikey, who was sitting a few feet away with the girl in front of him, was talking to her with a shaky voice as she continued to shiver and nod like if she disagreed with him he could call the men back.

There was movement in front of me. My eyes jolted back over to Leo as he took careful steps forward and I flinched as he put a hand on my shoulder. Immediately, I wrenched out of his grasp with a shaking breath as I felt the rest of my body trembling wildly along with my heart. Attempting to take another deep breath, it caught and I ended up coughing as I held a hand up to my mouth.

With wide eyes, I looked at the boys again, hoping to see different responses. Their eyes were still wide and hadn't moved since I had gone off-plan. My heart twisted painfully in my chest as I realized the way they were looking at me. They were staring into my soul the same way people looked at them and everything born from the mutagen.

They were looking at me like I was a monster.

I didn't like that feeling, so I shoved past the boys and when I reached the girl, who was still crying quietly in front of Mikey- who wasn't looking at me- I knelt down beside her. I watched myself with quick breaths as I lifted a shaky hand and offered it to the girl. If she accepted it than what I had done was right, right? I mean if the girl I was saving thought of me as a monster also, then was I really a monster? I had just lost my mind and put a sword through a guy because he had said the same words I had heard when I was alone and in need of help. Did that make me crazy? And if not, then what was I?

I was so deep in thought, I didn't notice when the girl's hand had began raising itself towards me, her fingers gently touching mine. Startled, I flinched and she did too, dropping her hand and leaning away. Letting out a gentle breath, I sucked my lips into my mouth and did it again, attempting to smile at the girl, who was staring up at me with wide eyes.

Her fingers laced through mine as I gently pulled her to her feet, making sure she was okay before I turned to the boys, still not looking at them. I didn't think I could take the looks on their faces. Instead, I stared down at our shoes as we shuffled slowly past everyone and I made sure to lean my body forward so the girl beside me didn't have to see what I had done. I didn't want her to think it was her fault.

"I'm taking her home." Everyone flinched at the tone and sudden harshness of my voice, but what kept me from breaking down was that instead of flinching again, the girl's hand tightened around mine, as if asking for nothing more than that. And I was willing to give it to her.

As we walked past the body of the face-down man to our right, I leaned down and grasped the sword in my hand. With one harsh tug, there was a squelching noise and then the ringing sound that metal makes as I propped it over my shoulder, aware it was still leaking blood.

And then, without looking back, we left the alleyways and the boys with a problem that they weren't ready to deal with.

I peered around the corner and sighed as I stepped out, making my way down the alleyway with my phone in hand. I turn another corner to go behind a building and run into someone.

"Oh, I'm so-" I then notice that it's Leo with his arms crossed as he stares down at me. I immediately pivot and run into Donnie. Mikey and Raph are on my left and right and I sigh, knowing I'm cornered. "What do you want?" I demand lowly, wanting nothing anything more but to just go home and go to bed. Obviously that wasn't happening today.

"I think you know why we're here." I sigh and lower my head as the boys back off to give me some space while I think.

"The guy was gonna hurt her! What else was I supposed to do? Just leave-"

"No! But you were not supposed to put yourself in danger like that, (y/n). I mean, what were you thinking?" Leo shouts at me as I stare at him with furrowed eyebrows.

"I was thinking about her, Leo! That girl that was getting-" I cut myself off with a growl in my throat as I took a deep breath and faced him again. "Leo, she didn't deserve that. That guy was going to hurt and I stopped him! I stopped him, Leo! If I could've stopped the guy that hurt me I would, but I'd go through it again if I had to save her!" I froze as I realized what I had just said. I had outed myself because I couldn't keep my big mouth shut.

"What did you just say?" Raph demanded in a whisper from my left as I sighed and squatted down, holding my face in my cold hands. "(Y/n)-"

"It was the date. We went to the abandoned side of New York by the amusement park and he started- I thought I wouldn't be able to stop him- he pushed my seat down and tried to get over the console-" I was sobbing now, crying loudly as I held my face, hands shaking against my skin as I trembled.

Suddenly, my hands were grabbed in larger, warmer ones and Leo gave me no time to flinch before he was pressing his forehead against mine, muttering to himself. "Oh my God, (y/n). I'm so sorry. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry..." He continued to whisper to me even as I slowly began to calm down until I was just crying lightly. I found Donnie and Mikey hugging my sides as Raph patted my back gently, not saying anything.

"Why didn't you tell us?" Leo finally asked as he wiped my eyes. I took a deep breath and sniffed, leaning back against Raph, who held me tightly.

"Because what good would it do? The cops can't do anything since he never actually did anything- it was just an attempt. And besides, his mom's a lawyer. She would never let anything happen to him. Why should I bother?"

"(Y/n), don't think that. You have the right to tell someone. Whether he locked you in his car or attempted something- you have the right to be able to tell someone that there is something wrong with him. It was not your fault." At this, I began crying again, nodding my head.

"Yes it was. If I had said no or worn sweats or left faster-" Leo shook his head, his eyes filling with tears at seeing my pathetic state.

"(Y/n), why do you feel more regret than he does?" I heard from behind me. I turned my head to see Raph looking at me seriously, his hands clenched.

"What?"

"(Y/n), the guy is probably off living his best life while you're the one sitting and regretting saying what if you were the one who did something different. He's not doing that. He's probably wishing you hadn't gotten that door open. He's not sitting on his floor crying somewhere asking himself why he tried to do that. The victim is always sorrier than the offender, (y/n)." My breath caught and I leaned back, tender eyes leaking again.

"You're going to be okay, (y/n). And it's going to take a long time for you to feel okay again, but we are here for you. Don't ever hide anything like that from us again."

"I don't regret it. What I did." I lifted my head and stared at Leo with clear eyes, letting him know that I was telling the truth.

"And I'm not asking you to." He said gently, reaching up to pat my head gently. That was the end of our talking I knew. So, for another hour or so, we sat in the alleyway and the boys listened to me as I let out every scream and every tear I had kept in me since that night. I thought crying in my room at midnight was helping me let it go, but I wasn't. I was doing it alone, regretting.

This was different. It was the boys on all sides of me, holding me together even though I was falling apart. But I knew that they would be there to build me back up again no matter how many times I fell apart.

And that's all I could ask for.

1+(800)656-4673 is the national sexual assault hotline. if you or anyone you know has or is being sexually assaulted, please do not give another thought to calling or telling someone you trust. or even if you just wanna talk about anything, guys, my dms are always always open to anyone. as a survivor, i would hate to know or hear about how someone i love (u guys) has ever been touched in any way that wasn't consentual because that takes such a huge toll on someone and i dont wish that upon my worst enemy.

thank u, i love u and please stay safe.

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