Lilies ✦ Newtmas / Thominewt AU

twenty (mentions of bloooood and suicide)

he felt like his whole world had just crumbled down.

which it sort of had.

newt was his world.

all that false hope.

he wasn't going to wake up. he never was going to wake up.

he was just following a lie he'd made up to keep himself from going insane.

and in the end, that was what stabbed him in his own back.

he should've known he wasn't going to wake up when he saw the blood all over the boy in the hospital.

but, he had seen that before when he had jumped off that building.

but that was to do with his legs, not his brain.

yes, he got a limp from it, but hey, getting a limp is better than dying.

well, in thomas' opinion anyway.

though newt made it very clear he wasn't suicidal anymore. and thomas had hoped to keep it that way.

but all the things newt could have lived for.

they literally could have got married.

but no, some stupid drunk driver decided to get into a car accident with someone who never deserved anything of the sort.

people are stupid sometimes.

but thomas realised he wasn't much different.

the driver was drunk on alcohol, but in a way thomas was drunk too.

not on alcohol, but for the past 4 months on love.

he was blinded by his love for newt. he refused to see the other side of it all, to even think that newt would not wake up.