VENTING :)

LONELY AGAIN

*sigh*..... I kinda feel like I'm gonna cry again tho... Why can't just this feeling go away...

*chuckle* i already crying tho.... I don't know how many times i cried these past few months because of this... I--*sigh*

Maybe i think when i saw my friends with their own groups make my heart sting, and im suddenly felt bitter....just--just how happy they are with their peers.

It hurt--it hurt so much that i feel like my heart gonna tear up from all tugging and pulling....

And i think the song above really suit me though...

Oh how i wish someone ask me if im alright without me upload about my well-being on the social media...

But i think my wish will never come true, cuz i know they're busy, it's ok, i don't mind. They already have their plate full so why bother them right....?

But i wish there's someone in the future will worry about me or maybe take care of me? Who's know, im quite stubborn you know.

There's one time when i went to a camp with my BFF, during that time i try to fall asleep but there's a lot of noises. Im a type of person who can't fall asleep when there's a lot of noises so after that i kinda upset and run of to a place where we put our bags. I locked up myself there and crying by myself... Yeah i know i kind of sappy that time.

And after that, the other girls and my BFF try to comfort me and tell me to opened up the door, but i didn't budge at all, i sit there and try to sleep too... *chuckle* i know im kinda stupid, i was 12 years old that time, what did you expect anyway.

*sigh*.... I think i feel a little bit better now, i guess maybe this week have been hard for becuz of exam... I guess? But i don't it's because of that....

Heh.... I think i need to seek therapy tho, i need to check myself if im okay mentally or not... But not now, maybe after i reach my adult years which is next year, oh yeah.... I need to find a job too then..

Well that's for today, it's kinda late here, around 12:21 a.m and here i am writing my feelings out here *chuckle*. Ah yeah, thank you for those who reading this tho, i appreciate it, and i wouldn't mind if u guys want to ranting here, go on *smile*

See ya guys again (if im update next time)
:)