Dear Sim Jaeyun ⚊ Letter Series #3 ✔

his last goodbye

Dear my moon,

When times are not on your side; when the whole world seems to fal right before me when all the letters and a diary to me because it said only one thing, that you are gone now in my life.

So I want to write a goodbye letter to you even though I know you will never see it for yourself.

Of course, we both know, you never want to say goodbye to your love, someone with whom you have laughed and cried. In reality not all stories have a happy ending.

When the painful time comes to say goodbye to her in only my memory of her, it’s like losing the part of me, that I carry with me are the memories to live with for rest of my life.

And When the realization hits you hard and no matter how hard you try; the circumstances won’t seem to favor you. The love that you have for someone you belong to.

It’s the time to say good bye. But how can I ever say it personally to you?

All I know is that I will always remember the very first time we met in that library, the very first time my lips touched your lips, the very first time you wrapped your arms around me and rested your head on my shoulder.

Your smile your way of looking at me will always be fresh in my memories. There are so many lovely memories but the fact remains the memories are not enough to bind us for rest of our lives.

I still have some hope deep in my heart that someday my love will bring you back in my arms. Your love letters to me remind me how much you love me ( or loved me).

The picture of your charming smile keep flashing back in front of my eyes; though I know things will never be the same but …. I just can’t stop myself .. I still love you.. I still yearn for your love.

It’s been a long time when I saw your lovely face; no matter for how many more months I won't get to see you, still your memories and my love for you will never fade away. I leave everything on the destiny; I am sure you still think about me.

Though over a period of time I have realized the bitter truth that we can't be together. I won't hesitate to say that I am still hanging on to our love.

There are so many unanswered questions in my mind that sometimes it forces me to approach you to get the answers and say a final goodbye to you. At the same time I want you to come to a realization where my undying love for you will make you come to me.

But aren't you the one to say to me that you'll wait for me there in Brisbane?

But even if not in Brisbane anymore, I will never have any regrets in life of loving you… of holding you in my arms of dreaming to be with you forever till the time I end of my life.

And hopefully then, I would wake up somewhere with you waiting for me at the lighthouse. Where we can make our own universe.

We'll never be the sun and moon again, but we'll be in our own paradise up there in heaven.

And can I wish one thing for you? I hope you say hello to Jay for me. He was my friend, a great one and precious to many people. I'm sure you will like him there.

But the truth is, the two of you never died.

You're all right here in my heart. The sun can't shine without remembering how it can never touch his moon again.

So in every night or moonlight there is, I'll be looking for you up the dark sky. And for the sake of our universe, be there for me too, alright?"

I love you, my moonlight.

Eternally Yours,
Sim Jaeyun