Let Me See (Let Me Series)

Special Chapter 3

"Did you ever wish na sana hindi na lang ako ang naging asawa mo?" seryoso kong tanong kay Gian one night before our anniversary. Sa nagdaang taon kasi, hindi na kami naubusan ng pinagtatalunan. We argue over the simplest things. Madalas ko rin siyang murahin dahil sa inis ko. Buti nga hindi pa napi-pick up ng anak namin yung mga murang isinisigaw ko palagi sa tatay niya.

Gian looked at me with a confused expression on his face na para bang hindi siya makapaniwala sa narinig niya.

"What? You heard me. Don't make me repeat my question," pagtataray ko sa kanya. 

Napailing si Gian at hinapit niya ako palapit sa kanya saka siya sumagot, "I never thought of that, silly. Sure, marami tayong naging pagtatalo pero lagi naman nating sinisigurado na naaayos natin 'yon bago pa lumipas ang isang araw. At sa totoo lang, you're the best that thing that has happened in my life. Hindi ako magiging ganito kasaya kung wala ka at ang anak natin sa buhay ko ngayon. You've brought color and meaning to my life. Hindi ko akalaing magagawa ko pang maging ganito kasaya kung hindi kayo dumating sa buhay ko."

I felt my eyes water because of what he said. Kainis naman. Why did I even have to bring this topic up kung ako lang din naman pala ang iiyak? Bago pa man tumulo nang tuluyan ang luha ko, Gian hugged me tighter than ever. He then kissed me on the forehead at niloko pa ako ng mokong.

"You're such a crybaby," natatawang sabi niya.

"Ikaw kasi e!" sagot ko naman sabay hampas sa braso niya. He continued chuckling as he combed my hair with his fingers. Slowly, I felt myself calming down with that.

A smile formed on my lips with the thought that it's always Gian who's making me at peace. Even with the smallest and simplest gestures, sobrang laki ng impact ng ginagawa niya sa akin. I'm not complaining though. Sobrang thankful ko pa nga na dumating siya sa buhay ko. If not for him, I wouldn't have this second shot at life and love. He's truly a blessing for me--him and our child.

"Let me ask you the same thing. Did you ever wish na hindi na lang ako ang asawa mo? Did you ever wish that you ended up with your ex instead?" mahinang tanong ni Gian na siyang ikinagulat ko. Was he having doubts pa rin ba about himself?

Bahagya akong lumayo kay Gian upang pagmasdan siya. Nando'n na naman yung itsura niya na para siyang nawawalan ng kumpiyansa sa sarili niya. Seriously though, kailan ba mawawala sa kanya 'tong insecurity na 'to?

"I love you," direkta kong sabi sa kanya. Gian was looking at me as if I'm acting all weird right now but I couldn't care less anymore. If I have to rub myself to him este if I have to tell him that I love him and I that chose just to rub it to him, I would gladly do it.

"I love you, okay? Mahal na mahal ko kayo ng anak natin and I would always choose to be with the both of you. You're my world now and I would always choose you and our daughter. You may not the be the first guy who became a part of my life but you would definitely be the last. You will be my forever... my infinity. So stop sulking, okay? Di bagay sa 'yo ang magdrama." Gian chuckled lowly because of what I said. He then pulled me closer to him and hugged me tight. We stayed like that for a couple of minutes until we heard our little devil crying out loud.

"Tawag ka na naman n'ong demonyo," natatawa kong sabi kay Gian. Tiningnan niya naman ako at napataas ang kilay ko dahil sa naging sagot niya.

"Kanino pa ba magmamana?"

"Aba't bwiset ka talaga!" sigaw ko sabay bato ng unan sa kanya. He caught the pillow effortlessly though and now, he's laughing at me so hard. Humanda talaga sa akin 'tong bwiset na 'to. Hindi na 'to makauulit kahit kailan!

Gian left the room still laughing. After a while, bumalik na siya sa kwarto habang buhat ang sutil naming anak. Kabata-bata pa lang pero alam na agad gumawa ng paraan kung paano namin bibigyan ng pansin. I feel like nagmana talaga 'to sa tatay niyang kulang din sa pansin e. Whenever we have misunderstandings kasi, kung ano-ano rin ang ginagawa nitong si Gian para lang pansinin ko siya at magkabati na kami.