Magnus Academy: The Cursed Blood Continuance

Chapter Seventy-One

"I Can't Breathe"

A punch.

Then another, causing an almost explosive sound of the bag to be blown away, spiraling towards the wall onto the other side of the room. I wrapped the cloth tightly around my right fist as I proceeded to punch another, the chains hanging the huge bag shaking vigorously. Kahit malamig ang hangin na pinapakawalan ng mga airconditioner sa paligid, hindi parin nito mapigilan ang pawis na kanina pa tumutulo sa katawan ko.

It's hot. So goddamn hot that

--I can't breathe.

It's a constriction enveloping my chest like never before, it was suffocating as if nails were being engraved deep around it. It feels frustrating, everything feels frustratingly slow. It's like everyone's going on a constant pace while I'm left here stuck inside my own head. Hindi ko alam kung bakit nga ba ako nagkakaganito, pakiramdam ko may mga bagay na dapat kong gawin pero ayaw ko din namang isipin kung ano ang nga ito. In other words, I have no direction.

Or maybe I'm just distracted.

Heavily distracted.

Things were supposed to keep quiet after that little confrontation laban sa World's Organization isang linggo na ang nakaraan. But those Generals are growing restless they keep making excuses to force their ways inside this Sector. Iyana's ship, the Avian Zone, is divided into several divisions. The Central Zone, the Sector where Iyana keeps the head of command and the main control section of the ship where only permitted personnels are allowed.

Sector Two is where most Generals stay, the third the engines, fourth the supply room, fifth the soldiers' dormitory--at hindi ko na maalala kung ano para sa ano ang ibang Sectors. Basically, Avian Zone is so large it could house an entire city if Iyana wishes to. But that's not the point, those Generals are suspicious of their very own President and claimed Iyana has been comprised. So she's been busy dealing with political stuffs along with her Vanguards and Grisela.

The aides have been busy dealing with something else this past week I barely encountered them, at nag-aalala din ako para kay Ka'ela na nawawala simula nung nangyari ang gulo laban kay Titania. Hinala ko ay sumama ito kay Alvar'ius at Celeztie, at alam ko naman na alam niya ang ginagawa niya pero sana naman sinabihan niya muna ako ng gagawin niya.

Even that sister of mine and Athena are busy. I know our relationship has already gotten to the point it could no longer be mended, pero hinihiling ko din na kahit hindi kami magkaayos ay sana naman hindi ito magiging hadlang sa plano ng Alliance na binubuo ng Legion Army, Grimhouse Sect, at ng Exodus. I know I'm mostly the one avoiding her, but it's just that looking at her face makes me so disappointed at myself that every time I look at her, I am reminded of the fact that I am weak and nothing but disappointment.

I was a kid back then, sensitive to words and little actions from other people that made me this way. I've gotten over my inferiority complex over the years thanks to Ka'ela, but it's like my sister's mere presence unravels all the buried memories and negative feelings I've kept hidden throughout all my life that I couldn't bear facing nor even just talking a single word to her. I would feel like throwing up, nausea would claw my insides out until I couldn't even feel my breath anymore. Just her being here brought me even more dilemma than the ones I'm already facing.

Not exactly knowing how to manage all these bunch of stuffs in my head, that's why I'm here now in some kind of an empty training facility punching some sand-filled bag to let out my frustrations. Because I feel like I'm being left behind again, at hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko. If I hadn't done this sooner, I might have already punched someone by now. But these punching bags aren't helping at all, na matapos ang dalawang suntok ay kumakalas na ang mga ito.