I've sinned and sinned for years;
for humanly I lived,
never will I deny;
my heart did once believe,
I locked my faith;
for elders swore I will,
be crucified with pain
if I pray never still;
so try did I;
head down, palms glued,
closed tight my eyes,
yet silently blued;
maybe distracted was,
maybe so tempted,
maybe my prayers not enough,
maybe so emptied;
I tried, I truly did;
His eyes, maybe have seen;
my eyes - they truly did;
not sight the foretold gleam,
not that it isn't true,
maybe it really is,
no, I've no single clue;
of what in life I missed;
but mere pretending's worse;
like burning wound and salt,
for either true or false;
debate shall never halt;
though arguing's no dime;
my own beliefs won't need
a shed of light in time,
my own path they shall lead.
