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➶ 𝙰𝚝𝚕𝚊𝚗𝚝𝚊 , 𝙶𝙰 ➴
𝚃𝚎𝚣𝚑𝚊é 𝙰𝚖𝚒𝚛𝚎𝚎 𝚁𝚎𝚍𝚍 | 𝙼𝚒𝚛𝚎𝚎 ♕
𝙰 𝚆𝚎𝚎𝚔 𝙻𝚊𝚝𝚎𝚛
10:48ᴘᴍ

it's been a week since the me and my mama incident and it's still fucking with me.

not to mention after that lil "moment" me and three shared, we ain't said a word to eachother since.

i've gone back to the same state i was in 11 years ago. not fully, but if ion do sum about this i'm gon be back at stage 1.

i sat on my bed in darkness with rodwave playing lowly in the background just staring at nothing deep in thought.

i've been like this all day, my phone has been on dnd and
i haven't left my room in like 2 days.

i ain't ate, only showered and stuff. i can't lie and say i'm not a lil dizzy rn but imma be aight.

"please God please don't make me go back to my old ways i've grown so much." i whispered to myself as light tears fell down my face.

i'm not ready to go back to the way i was at all, it took me about 9 years to heal just from that one experience.

i can't go through that again, the amount of suicide attempts, the ptsd, it's too much for me right now.

i can feel it slowly coming back to me, i just hope i'm strong enough to push it away.

i heard a knock on the front door outside and just decided to go and open it. my mama wasn't home at the moment.

i quickly wiped my tears and jogged downstairs to get the door.

when i opened the door, i was about to close it back but it got caught back open.

"move." killa said pushing me out the way while i closed the door behind me.

"why tf you been ghosting everybody had us thinkin yo ass was floating inna river."

"first of all i don't know who gave you permission to burst into my shit like you da feds. " i said looking at him.

he turned around, started to examine my face, and shook his head.

"did you eat?" he asked me walking into the kitchen.

"you not finna come in hea walkin round like you pay bills"