Random oneshot

Forever and always - Dazai x reader

~Y/n pov~

I sat on the edge of a building, staring at the ground below me.

Was I really going to do it? Was I going to jump?

I stood over the ledge and took a deep breath.

It's now or never.

Just before I fell to my death, I felt a hand grab my wrist and pulled me up.

I turned to face a brown haired man, "Why did you save me?"

"You're much too beautiful to die alone."

Was this guy for real?

And so, that was the story of how Dazai saved me; but it doesn't end there.

I joined the detective agency and worked with Dazai.

I felt happy..or so I thought.

But I knew as long as I lived, I would never truly be happy.

I was meant to die that day and yet I didn't.

Why couldn't I have left this world?

I want to die but at the same time... I want to stay at Dazai's side.

Slumping against the wall in my room, I allowed myself to cry.

The door suddenly slid open.

I looked up startled to see Dazai giving me a concerned look.

"You still don't want to live?" He sat down beside me.

I shook my head no.

Dazai wrapped an arm around my shoulder in a comforting embrace, "Then, it's decided."

"What's decided?" I asked.

He grinned, "Let's commit a double suicide."

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There we were, stood on the edge of the rooftop.

The rooftop were I first tried to kill myself and the one where I'd succeeded in killing myself on the second attempt.

The rooftop where Dazai saved me and brought a light into my life.

It was enough. I wasn't enough...

I'm just glad I met Dazai and now...

"You ready, my love?" Dazai asked me.

My thoughts were cut off.

"I've been ready for a while now."

He took my hand in his and gave it a gentle squeeze, sending me a loving smile.

"Then, on the count of three."

We stood on the edge, our hand entwined.

I started to count down.

When I got to two, I froze at the feeling of lips being placed on my forehead.

I gave Dazai a puzzled look.

He just smiled, "I wanted to do that before we go."

I felt a small tug on my hand and the next thing I knew, we were falling.

When I was finally facing death, I realised.

Maybe I didn't want this after all?

Dazai saved me... isn't that a sign I should've lived my life happily with him?

There were so many things I wanted to do and never got the chance to. That was my chance and I blew it.

What's wrong with me? I'm truly selfish.

I even dragged Dazai into this with me.

I don't wanna die. I wanna live.

I wanna live and be happy surrounded with my friends from the detective agency.

Maybe I could've got married and started a family. But its all over now.

I wasted my chance at a fresh start in life. God, I'm such an idiot.

I guess there's no use worrying about it now... it's over.

Closing my eyes, I felt the wind whipping violently around us and Dazai's warm hand in mine.

Well... it's not like I can do anything anyway.

The ground was coming closer and closer.

At least I'm with the one I love in my last moment.

That was my last thought before I hit the ground.

Jolts of pain shot through me and I felt my blood splattering everywhere.

Dazai's hand fell limp telling me he had died first.

My vision faded in and out as I succumbed to the hands of death.

I would soon join him.

The last thing I heard were the panicked yells of citizens and an ambulance.

This is the end.

Dazai, I love you...forever and always.

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A/n requested by L3uc0sia I wasn't sure what you wanted exactly so I got creative with this one.