Destined to be yours

Chapter 32| Confessions

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Ahana:"Nothing Neil. Everything is fine"(she said as she started to head to the door, but Neil held her hand and pulled her towards him causing her to collide with his chest as her heartbeat raised)"Neil.."

Neil:"Tell me Ahana what happened...Your silence is breaking me..I can't handle it.. Please Ahana"(he whispered as Ahana's breathing fastens due to their closeness )

Ahana:"Neil...I...I..no.."(She pushes out of his hold as she realizes what she was gonna say)"Neil please you don't want to hear it. Trust me. Just let it go. It will be for the best"

Neil:(Yelling in frustration )"Best?..how is it for the best? My mind can't focus on things like they used to. All the time one thought comes in my mind. Why is Ahana doing this? Did something happen ? Did I do something ? is she in a problem? All of this started that day. That day Aryan got...he..he got his problem and you started to act weird. That day was my fault. All my fault. I couldn't save my sons and i put your life in danger too.."

Ahana:"No Neil that's not it..Your not at fault.  It's all my fault. I did something that I shouldn't do. And the part that would hurt you the most is that I don't regret it. I can never regret it. but you will. You will hate me. And I can't see that. I can't..I...I can't tell you"

Neil:(Cupping her face with his hands)"I would never hate you Ahana because I know you would never do something that would put any harm to our kids or our family. Please tell me. I can help."

Ahana:"You can't help..no one can"

Neil:"for god sake Ahana at least let me try....you can't just push me away. I am your friend. I am..."

Ahana:(In anger )"That the problem Neil. You are my Friend. My Friend for whom I have started to have feelings for"

Neil:(Shocked)"What?"

Ahana:(Tears rolled her eyes as she started into Neil's shocked eyes)"Yes...I...I love you. Are u happy now. Now you know. Tell me Neil Don't you hate me. I broke everything. Our friendship. Our partnership as the kids parents. Everything. But what can I do Neil, I fell in love with you. Spending these 10 months with you, made me realize that my life is not over. That maybe I do deserve happiness. Maybe we do deserve to have happiness for ourselves as well. "

Neil:"How...how can you.."(He asked still in shock as she looked at her)

Ahana:(Laughed sadly through her tears)"Yeah..how..how can I. How can I fall in love with you? How can I think of you when I loved Rajeev? How? I think that to myself since the day I realized. The day at the hospital. Seeing you lay on that bed broke me. I thought that I lost everything. After M...mom and D..Dad... and Rajeev's death I finally started to feel happy and alive, but that day...that moment made me realize that the happiness I felt was related to you and the kids. I realized that I see you more then just the father of my kids. I see you more then just a friend. I ....I started loving you. And I know you hate me now for it. Maybe will hate me all your life, But I don't regret it Neil. I would never regret Loving you even if it makes you hate me all my life."

Neil stood there in silence and shock looking at Ahana which broke her a little. She had confessed so much and even if she had guessed Neil to be angry with this confession, Somewhere in her heart she hoped that he would hug her and tell that she did nothing wrong. Loving someone wasn't a sin. Was it?

Ahana:(As she sits on the bed while keeping her head in her hands before she looks up at Neil)"You know Neil. Everyone.. Prabha ma, Angali mom, Bhabhi, Sid..Everyone kept saying that maybe you and me could be more then just the parents of our kids. And I denied the fact everytime. It couldn't be possible. I love Rajeev. You love Aarti ji. But then life hit me hard. (She laughs sarcastically at her messed up life)"God must really hate me right. Why...Why did I have to realize I love you..Why.. everything was perfect the way it was and now..i a ruined. I ruined everything. our friendship everything. I am sorry...I.. I.. am so sorry.."(She broke down...while Neil stood there looking at her as tears rolled his eyes)