Your HBC Dream

cuddles

Helena's POV

It was 2 AM and i havent slept yet. I was so scared about y/n. She was mentally in so much pain but i have no idea how to help her.. She doesnt accept it. Im not allowed to be in her room anymore or help her with homework. The only time when i see her is when she's eating breakfast and dinner. But even then, she's on her phone all the time with smudged eyeliner and mascara under her eyes, biting her lip trying not to breakdown again. If i could i'd just run up to her and hug her, but i dont want her to feel uncomfortable.

I heard sounds coming from the bathroom. Crying sounds. The lights where on so there has to be someone inside. While walking towards the bedroom i see Nell standing there also crying and being afraid of what is going on with y/n.

'Hey, shhh, shh, honey, its okay. shhh' I try to calm her down. I give her a big hug and sent her back to her bedroom.

I listened very closely and leaned an ear on the door. She was mumbeling something to herself but i couldnt understand what. I decided to just leave her alone and i went back to bed. I was exhausted and i needed more sleep. I walked to my room and fell on my bed. I had a terrible headache. I heard footsteps again and it was Nell still being upset, asking if she could sleep with me tonight. I hugged her again and we both fell asleep right after. But i really need to talk to y/n and help her, or find her some help. Cause this isnt okay.

y/n POV

End of flashback

I sobbed again thinking about all this. I feel so bad for everyone, and its all my fould. I hate myself.

Finally i fell asleep.

The next day was the exact same as all the others. I followed my online classes. Called a little bit with Zoe. Laughed and snorted. Tried to do my homework but ending up getting angry because you didnt understand it. Went downstairs to pick up my lunch. Answered Helena if i was okay. And went back upstairs to my room to sit on my window with my Nutella sandwich, listening to my favorite music, thinking about life. Seeing how the birds were making out together. At that moment life was beautiful, but very very painful.

A couple hours later

It's 11 PM, which means time to go to bed. But of course i wouldnt go to sleep. I closed my eyes listening to the beautiful words and melody of the song. I fell asleep at 1 AM. finally pretty early for the first time in weeks.

Helena's POV

Of course i also couldnt sleep again, so i finally got all my power and walked to y/n's room. She was sleeping as a angel that had finally found her peace. Wait does that mean she died? No of course not Helena dont be so weird and stupid. Go back to bed its late. You shouldnt be doing this. Helena go back to bed. A million thoughts were flying trough my head, but i got all my power againa and walked to y/n.

'Mom what are you doing here please go away. PLEASE' she screamed to me. Gosh i could feel all her pain in her voice..

'Hey, y/n. shhh.. its all going to be okay, okay? Just breath with me okay.' She was shaking so badly. She was scared. So scared of what was happening. Im also scared. Very scared. but i couldnt show y/n, cause i need to help her. Her health is much more important then my health.

I hugged her. She sobbed in my arms. Shaking.

'Im so scared mom... Im so scared.. Im.. So.. Scared..' she said crying on my shoulder.

'Hey, sshhh.. Its okay y/n its okay. You know you can tell me everything.' I was stroking trough her long wavy h/c hair. Gosh she's so pretty. I wish i was this pretty.

She was still sobbing on my shoulder when she finally began to speak.

'I'm so sorry mom.. I shouldve told you everything. Im so sorry for hiding everything mom.. Im so scared. My life is pointless. Im pointless.. I dont know what to do.'

'Its okay baby.. its not your fault..'

We fell asleep still hugging. With make up all over our faces. All smudged. Gosh i love her so much.

y/n's POV

All i can remember from last night, was hugging the person that i loved the most. She was my whole world and i love her. Maybe she's the reason to stay..

hopefully..

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Well that was that lol.

This is a quite long chapter then normal lol

Most of all this is true, and i just wish i could cry in Helena's arms one day. Hugging her.

This story is kinda based of me having a panic attack last night, and my sister coming to hug me. She saved me :)

I love her so much but im always so mean to her. And now i feel so bad.

Anyways i hope you enjoyed reading this :)

If you ever need someone to talk to feel free to dm me on instagram bliss.blackk

I love you, have a great day/night <3

(please ignore any spelling mistakes or anything else. Im so tired so yeah lol :)