Isolated Island (Island Trilogy #1) COMPLETE

Isla Trenta'y Uno: Pinaasa

DIRICH POV

I admit it. Gusto ko si Dior. Mahal ko si Dior, but it's too lame that he made me feel so special but he loves someone. Those words he spoke when we're doing a truth or game was a bang to my emotions and heart, sabi niya 'Ako ang umasa', pero bakit baliktad yata?

Do I deserve this pain or this pain would wash away everything I had for Dior especially now that Carina is here. Deserve ko bang masaktan o mismo ang sakit ang aalis lalo na't alam kong masaya ako para sakanila?

I know from the very start that Dior and Carina exist, they're silent when it comes to what they had but I'm too jealous of it because I know all of them.

Everything they had together was seen by my naked eye. It's all accident but it's the most painful accident ever.

The way Dior sings for her made me cry that night. Nanalangin ako na sana ako si Carina, pero, kahit siguro ako ang magiging Carina hindi parin ako ang pipiliin dahil copycat lang naman ako ng hinahangad ko.

I wished for him. I prayed for him. But, he was the answered prayers of Carina.

I want him but I shouldn't gain this audacity to become a scandalous one for begging him to be mine.

All those years, my feelings towards him grew bigger that really made me fall for him that hard.

Honestly, there's a lot of boys that tried to hit with me pero siya ang hinahanap ko, siya ang hinahangad kong magkaroon ng kapasidad na umamin sa'kin na-- gusto niya ako, pero, pinapaasa ko lang ang sarili ko sa wala.

To be honest, hindi madaling mahalin si Dior. Dior is a type of man na bibigyan ka ng treatment na kakaiba, treatment na makakapagpabuo ng 'gusto' into 'love' (just like what happen to me) but in the end of the day of loving him, you'll broke into pieces, knowing that, he's not for you, knowing that, he would never be yours, knowing that he would NEVER choose you cause he had SOMEONE na paulit ulit niyang PINIPILI.

I envy Carina for having Dior. But what can I do if all those treatments he had given me was a trial.

Pakiramdam ko nga e, ako ang pinag-praktisan ng mga nakakakilig na galawan niya para kay Carina.

But it doesn't matter, at least he's happy with her.

Ang hindi ko lang matanggap, e, 'yung pinaasa niya ako sa wala. The truth or dare scene is still fresh on my mind. That night, we did it, I feel so happy but I regret it now.

Hindi pala dapat isuko ang lahat sa lalaking hindi sigurado sa'yo...kahit mahal mo pa ito.

I sighed and stared at the ocean. How, I wish, I had someone with me.

Inikot ko ang paningin ko. Hindi ko matagalan ang pagtitig sa dagat, pakiramdam ko, 'yun yung feelings kong sinusubukang inaanod palayo pero balik parin ng balik.

Gai and Elrich is holding each other's hand while sitting under the tree.

Tayuu and Ichan sitting near the water, nagwiwisikan pa sabay tawa.

Jurich and Chase having a bardugalan time which supposedly called a bebe time. Dinadaan nila sa bardugalan ang pagmamahalan ng Isa't isa.

Grace and Owen talking with each other.

Lyn and Cris playing with the sand.

Troy and Mirich are leaning on the tree trunk. Hinahaplos ni Troy ang tiyan ni Mirich.

Gazi and EJ had their time. Naka-pwesto sa likod ni Gazi si EJ, yakap yakap naman ni Josiah si Gazi na nakatulog na. Wala naman ako sa sariling napangiti ng halikan ni Josiah si Gazi sa pisnge. Nakita ni Cris kaya binato niya si Josiah ng bato, pero itong abnoy na Presidente tumawa lang.