that 1k reads suddenly made my blank ass card feel special- thank you gaaays!
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holding her hands in front of the altar, we were thirteen at the time, all the hypocrites have gone outside the church. our souls weren't that clean either but we know our beliefs are.
our families works for church so should we and that's how we met. we found each other and got lost into our own world. isn't that just beautiful?
it's just the two of us now, looking into each other's eyes, "siyeon, you're spacing out" sua's voice pulled me out of my mind.
"do you think they will ever understand us?" i asked out of the blue.
"hmmm," she hummed for a while, looking away but still holding both of my hands, "i don't know, siyeon. maybe just some of them. you know all of the people are- i'm sorry God-" she apologized and continued the sentence, "-are bullshits"
she never failed to make me laugh and stopped worrying about all the things in life.
"stop thinking, siyeoniee" she smiled and moved closer to kiss my forehead, "shall we pray?" i nodded.
we kneeled down at one of the pews and did the the sign of the cross, closing our eyes.
i thanked God for letting me meet her in this shitty life, now- in the present time- i slowly opened my eyes as i stood up after offering a prayer.
"you're useless" a boy, rudely stated, "you have the gut to pray, huh?" he even laughed and kicked my foot.
i could forgive him for doing that, because i understand he's a shit but i think this girl beside me couldn't.
"step aside, babe. please" said sua, trying to reach the boy.
"don't even do what you're planning-" i just took a deep breath when i she softly pushed me aside and grabbed the boy's collar. "we're in a middle of a mass, have respect" i whispered.
too late, we already caught other's attention.
i slapped sua's arms and told her several times to just ignore him but she's really stubborn.
"i'm just telling the truth, girl" he smirked, "people like you shouldn't be here" fuck this bastard.
sua pushed and punched him hard. "you're the one who shouldn't be here, fucker" sua calmly but also angrily said and punched him again.
i looked around us and people are staring. i bowed to them and apologized.
the bastard couldn't speak due to his bleeding lips. ha, karma.
before sua could kill him, i already grabbed her arms and dragged her at the back of the church where no one could see us, not forgetting to bow.
"it wouldn't hurt to fight for yourself, you should've speak up. you can't let people treat you like shit, siyeon" she said, letting a heavy sigh.
"it also takes place to where you should do that" i smiled.
"he kicked you!" she yelled, "how am is supposed to ignore that-" she's really angry and the only way to shut that unstoppable mouth of hers is to cover it using my palm.
"i get it, please just shut up. okay?" i softly said to calm this hotheaded girl of mine.
she's the bubbly and energetic type but when it comes to things like this, people judging us, she could be a saint, saint of all evils.
once my parents almost made me kneel in front of the church and of all the saints and people because they found out about us, she didn't even hesitate to help me despite of sticky stares around us.
her parents couldn't accept her either, all of them didn't accept us. but none of those made us stop from praying. we grew up with cruelty orbiting us but whenever she holds me, i know i'm safe, i'm loved.
"the only hell i'd be going is a place without you" said her, i told her the same.
i wrapped my fingers around her neck with my thumb caressing her cheeks as i observed every part of her face, every part of her personality and damn, is this what heaven feels like
"siyeon..." said sua, almost breathlessly and closed the gap between our lips.
even sua's lips are even made of holiness, i could kiss her in front of all the saints and they'd be jealous.
every step i was making backwards to reach a wall, sua made sure i won't stumble by holding me gently, i don't have to worry either. now leaning against the church's wall, sua's tongue explored my mouth and we just couldn't help but to make a sound, a sound that made the priest's voice inside inaudible.
seconds had passed after her lips left mine, we just stared at each other and then laughed out loud without a reason, does that even need a reason?
"did we just made out at the back of the church? oh God, we're sorry"
