With Her | Jori |1|

chapter 1

So I want to start off by saying I'm aware that my writing is not the best. This is the first fanfiction I have ever written. This story is also under major editing.

DISCLAIMER: I do not own victorious or the characters from it. I also do not own the song I use in this chapter. I only own my characters that enter the story later on.

Feel free to point out mistakes

Tori's pov

Beep beep beep be- I roll over and hit the off button on my alarm clock. I get out of bed and walk over to my closet grabbing my outfit for school today. A sweater with jeans and toms.

Walking into the bathroom connected to my bedroom I lock the door and get out my makeup bag. I find my concealer and put it on my left wrist and arm covering the week old cuts. I then cover up the bruise on my cheek. I get dressed and put on mascara and chapstick. I fix my hair before walking downstairs to see Trina eating breakfast with our parents. I walk over to the fridge and get out a bottle of water. My dad glares at me and I take a step further away from him.

I type in "Are you ready to go?"  in my notes on my phone and give it to Trina.

"Yeah sure, lets get going. I don't wanna be late." she says rolling her eyes. Trina and I have never gotten on well. Her being the favorite means that I'm the one getting used as a punching bag and she gets to remain oblivious.

We walk out after she bids goodbye to our parents and start driving to school. On the way there I text my cousin Darren to make sure he's taking Isabella to daycare today.

As soon as we get there I instantly walk towards my locker and see Jade waiting for me. She is the only one I have even spoken one word to. We have a strange...I guess you could call it a friendship; sometimes more. At school she's all sarcastic and rude, but when we are just hanging out alone I see the real Jade. The loving, caring and softer side of her that only Beck has seen.

She's also one of the reasons why I am about a week clean. Jade found me in the ally after it happened last summer. She only knows about my self harm and eating problems but nothing else. She doesn't know about my dad. No one besides my mom does but of course she's never done anything.

Hiding my limp, I walk over to my locker and smile at Jade. She smiles back, a real smile not one of those fake ones she gives Beck and I feel butterflies in the pit of my stomach. What? Why am I still feeling like this? I thought I was over this. I can't still feel this way. She's straight, this means nothing to her. This is just a game to her.

"Hey wanna stay over tonight? My dad is out of town for some stupid business trip like always" She asks as we walk toward the auditorium. Our assignment in class yesterday was to pick a song that we could relate to the most and today we would preform it.

"Yeah, sure" I reply quietly, my voice scratchy and raw.

She flashes me a grin and links our arms before walking to class. The same tingles dance across my skin just like every other time we touch.

It's always been like this for me. Having to suffer in silence while watching her with him. She has this hold on me and for some reason I just let her. I've always felt drawn to her but I could never figure out why.

Jade is complicated but she's also not at the same time. She can either ruin you completely or put you back together and in a way she's done both. She's helping me get better and she's being my friend (sometimes more) but she's also still with him. No matter how many times we kiss or hold hands under tables she'll always go back to him. She always has.

I look away from Beck and Jade and walk to the stage. I take a deep breath and the song starts.

Oh, there she goes again,

Every morning it's the same

You walk on by my house

I wanna call out your name

I want to tell you how beautiful you are from where I'm standing

You got me thinking what we could be 'cause

I keep craving, craving, you don't know it but it's true

Can't get my mouth to say the words they want to say to you

This is typical of love

Can't wait anymore, I won't wait, I need to tell you how I feel when I see us together forever

In my dreams you're with me

We'll be everything I want us to be

And from there, who knows, maybe this will be the night that we kiss for the first time

Or is that just me and my imagination

We walk, we laugh, we spend our time walking by the ocean side

Our hands are gently intertwined

A feeling I just can't describe

All this time we spent alone, thinking we could not belong to something so damn beautiful

So damn beautiful

My eyes connect with Jades across the parking lot, neither one of us daring to look away.

I keep craving, craving, you don't know it, but it's true

Can't get my mouth to say the words they want to say to you

This is typical of love

Can't wait anymore, I won't wait, I need to tell you how I feel when I see us together forever

In my dreams, you're with me

We'll be everything I want us to be

And from there, who knows, maybe this will be the night that we kiss for the first time

Or is that just me and my imagination

Imagination

Imagination

(Whoa, whoa, whoa...)

In my dreams, you're with me

We'll be everything I want us to be

And from there, who knows, maybe this will be the night that we kiss for the first time

Or is that just me and my imagination

I keep craving, craving, you don't know it, but it's true

Can't get my mouth to say the words they want to say to you

I clench my fist, my nails digging into the palm of my hand. I hate that she makes me feel like this and there is nothing I can do about it. Every time I try to distance myself something always pulls me back in. She's like a drug, a very addictive drug.