In The Dark

I hate you

I hate you, I hate you. 

I believe it’s true. 

I hate you, I hate you. 

But I can’t tell if I do. 

I hate you, I hate you oh so much. 

To get through the days I need a clutch.

I hate you, I hate but do I? 

Does it count if it’s gone when I get too high?

I hate you, I hate though not really. 

It’s more that I hate what I am feeling. 

I hate you, I hate you, I say to myself. 

I hate what you say and how you act in front of everyone else. 

I hate you, I hate you! I yell in the mirror.

The hate for myself keeps getting bigger. 

I hate you, I hate you so do others.

No one loves you, not even your own mother. 

I hate you, I hate you, what don’t you understand?! 

Why won’t you listen to my demand?! 

I hate you, I hate you, you know it’s true. 

I hate myself but you know that too. 

I hate you, I hate you! I can’t help but scream. 

My voice is slowly drowning me. 

I hate you, I hate you, I begin to cry. 

How does it get so bad that I want to die?

I hate you, I hate you. I whisper now. 

My voice slowly drowned out. 

I hate you, I hate you, now a broken whisper. 

The pain inside became like a twister. 

I hate you, I hate you, silence falls. 

Listen to the blood running down the walls. 

I hate you, I hate you but now it has disappeared. 

It knew who I loved and what I feared. 

I hate you, I hate you, a silent plea. 

A good life there was never a guarantee. 

I hate you, I hate you. 

Well I hate you too. 

I hate you, I hate you, more than you know. 

I hate you, I hate you, let it go. 

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Until next time!

Love, Caitlin