A Book of Random Poetry

Reborn

Author's Note: Hi, guys! This piece is something I created while I was warming up to write another poem for a school assignment. I am not quite sure where this came from, I guess I just felt as though I had to state my truth. I hope you guys like it!
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I used to feel invisible.
My laugh would carry
through to the other room,
but deep down,
I was suffering from loneliness.
My brain wasn't capable
of handling just my presence,
so I would always make sure
to be in the company of
somebody else.
But that didn't work.
For when I was in a crowd,
I felt more alone than when
it was just me in an empty room.
Nobody saw me,
or they did,
but not genuinely.

The hole in my heart
yearned for something
to make it whole.
I knew what it needed,
but I was stubborn,
and I didn't want to end up disappointed.
His presence circled around me,
waiting to be let into my soul,
But I forbade it.
I couldn't put up with another
heartbreak.

However, my outlook on life
began to change when
I started to fish from his streams,
hike through his trails,
and laugh under his beating sun.
For most of my life
up until that point,
I didn't believe that I
deserved anything,
especially his love.
But he gave me those
gifts so that I would be
happy,
and he didn't want me to
keep pushing him away.
So I stripped naked,
and faced the demons
that had taken over my
racing mind.
He called to me,
and I ran over to him
for the first time.
I clutched his robe
and asked if he
would accept me
as I am.
He nodded,
and that was the moment
that I started to
accept God's love.

I was reborn.