I was once a young girl, so innocent, so pure, no room for feelings because I grew up like this, I dont know how to smile, laugh or cry. All I know is to obey the one who raise me.
I was still young when I get to see how cruel the world is. But I never felt bad about it. What for? I dont even know if I have feelings after all.
Little by little, I learned the basic. Until I fully understand human nature is. I already know the pain, the happiness, how to cry and almost all.
But I did not know that having those emotions can make you vulnerable. I never knew that the pain could kill you inside.
If only I had known the counter effect of having those emotions, I'd rather not know any of those than live a life miserably. I would rather be someone who lacks emotions than having a life like hell.
I'd rather not feel how to be happy, than having this pain that kills me slowly.
I'd rather be a demon than being a person with different emotions and live like a fool of all those pain. If only I know
