[✔️] Again and Again - ENHYPEN Park Sunghoon FF

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⚠Warning! This chapter contains suicidal content,please do not read if you are uncomfortable⚠

"SUNGHOON" They all hug me as soon as i stepped out of my room. Their hugs felt warm but,i still feel empty. Their hugs don't work anymore

"Sunghoon are you okay? are you hungry? we'll cook some food-" "I'm okay Heeseung hyung,thanks. I just....need some fresh air"

They all nodded and seemed, actually relieved. Maybe because I've been locking myself for a year or so now and this is the first time i went out

"Okay,be careful hm? Wear your mask and try not to let anyone recognize you" I nodded at Jungwon. This whole idol thing is starting to be a burden for me

I can't be free, everywhere i go it's just like I'm being watched. When did i started to feel like this? It's like everything i loved is now,just pointless

I grab my jacket and my mask and head out from our dorm

The cold air hits, it's winter now and it's cold. Reminds me of the dog i gave to Y/n...winter,wonder where is it

I walk down the streets with my head hanged low. Just looking at my footsteps without actually knowing where to go

My feet stopped,i didn't know where i was but,this place seems familiar

I look around, trying to figure out what place this is and then it hit me. Tears start to fall down,i can't control it,this is the place. The place where Y/n died

I can't help but let out my tears as guilt and regret start to take over. Memories of me and her starts to play in my head

All the good times we had,now just memories. Unable to make new ones, cause you're gone

Memories that used to be so happy,now brings pain, guilt and regret

I turned my head away unable to handle it. I want to walk away but my feet is,not moving

A part of me wants to stay and remember her but another part says 'let's go move on, she's gone and she's not coming back'

I don't know which one to listen to. I don't wanna leave her but I can't stay like this forever

Next to me,was a building,an old one. It looks wrecked but still standing strong

I enter it and look around,the place is all messed up but still,warm

There are stairs, I'm guessing there's a rooftop? I should go there and see the view, maybe it'll make me feel better

I walk up the stairs as i noticed ruined pictures everywhere. "What is this place? Weird"

I ignore the broken pictures and continue to make my way to the rooftop

As i open it,the cold breeze hits. Making me close my eyes and relax

I come closer to the edge and see the view. "Beautiful view"  I take a deep breath, admiring the beautiful view

"I wish you were here with me to see this Y/n" Taking in the view and the cold breeze

I looked down at the busy streets. Cars and traffic everywhere

Somehow,i don't know how or why a part of me saying "Follow her"

I don't know what it means but tears flow down my eyes like waterfall

I can't stop my tears,why all of the sudden? I feel something inside of me aching

I look up the sky,Y/n would've loved this

I close my eyes as i step on the edge. I look down then look up again. In a building this high, I'm stepping on the edge but i feel no fear

I take a step and fall freely from the building

I turn my body and look at the beautiful pink sky. "I'm coming Y/n" and then everything goes dark

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