[✔️] Again and Again - ENHYPEN Park Sunghoon FF

Again

Sunghoon POV

How long have i been like this? What day is it? Has it been a month? or maybe a year? I lost track of time

I haven't eaten for how long now? but it's weird, I don't feel hungry,i feel nothing,i just feel emptiness

Something or maybe to be correct,someone is missing,what is,who is missing?

I'm here alone in my dark room,with food on it's plates untouched

I hear a knock on my door and someone comes in, grabbing the plates on the floor

"Hey you awake?" I nodded,he looks at me,put the plates down and sit next to me

"How long are you gonna be like this Sunghoon, it's been a year you're on hiatus,Engenes are worried, it's time to let go of Y/n"

Right,now i remember everything. Y/n is missing, she's not here to give me hugs or kisses,to comfort me, she's gone and it's all because of me

Flashback~

I sat in front of her grave,on top of it were flowers and a beautiful picture of her

I cried and cried,it all happened so fast. I wish i could've saved her,no- i shouldn't have let my jealousy get over me,if i did then all this wouldn't have happened

But she died, right at the place,just a few seconds after the truck hit her. Blood all over her,her white hospital dress stained with her blood

"YOU!" I felt a hard slap hit me on the cheek,i turn to see the person. It was Aunt Akina

"BECAUSE OF YOU! BECAUSE OF YOU I LOST MY DAUGHTER,I SHOULDN'T HAVE TRUSTED HER TO YOU" I'm not mad at her, it's my fault and i know it

I hang my head low as she cries and leaves the place. I felt a tap on my shoulder

"Hey buddy, don't take her too seriously, she's just uh really upset about losing her daughter" "Who are you?" "Ah sorry, I'm Akina's boyfriend" "Ah uhm thanks,maybe you should go and comfort her,she needs it"

He nods and gave a smile before leaving to find Akina

I look next to me and Niki was there, sitting there emotionless. His eyes were empty,no sadness,anger or anything

"Niki I'm really sorry...i know you trusted me with her but i-" "It's okay hyung,let the past be the past, she's in a better place now" He turned to me with teary eyes, he's trying hard not to breakdown in front of everyone

End of flashback~

The most depressing day of my life. It's been over a year and still can't get over her

While everyone else is moving on with their lives, I'm here left alone still holding on to the past that will never come back

Is it my guilt and regret pulling me down? Or is it just my fear of losing you

Jay who is sitting next to me just looks at me with sad eyes. "Look Sunghoon, manager hyung is starting to give up on you but not me and the boys,so please bring back the old Sunghoon, everyone misses the shy,fun and witty Sunghoon" He pleaded but i stayed silent

He sighed and grabbed my wrist,he opened my hand and gave me something before getting up and leaving my room

I look at it and i smile a bit, it's the necklace i gave to Y/n. A little bit of her blood was on it

I miss you Y/n I can't live life without you. It's been a year,but i still can't get over you

Looks like nothing is gonna bring you back is it

So what's the point of life without you? My only wish right now,is to be with you Y/n,no matter what

I'll do whatever it takes to be with you. If i have to kill someone,i will. If i have to quit being an idol,i will. If it means i have to lose everything for you, I'll do it

You were the only reason Y/n,the only reason to live. Now? What is life without you? Just a waste of time

I don't need anyone else besides you, I don't want anyone else except for you. You were the one,you are still and you forever will be the only one for me

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