Damsel (Slowly Rewriting)

chapter 13

Lacey

I stared up at my so called brother, and my eyes widened with anger.

He left me.

He left me when I needed him most, he left me for my father to constantly beat at night.

He didn't care about me. He made me feel worth the beatings.

He left me when I hated myself, and began self harm.

He left, and the only time he came back was when he was drunk off his ass.

He truly proved how much he cared about me, so why would I ever forgive him?

I stood up and backed, angry tears filling eyes as I felt my knees go weak. My head started pounding when I felt a growl emit from my lips.

I darted upstairs, not being able to take it anymore.

I had every right to be angry, he will never understand what he did to me- how he betrayed me.

I quickly locked myself in Xavier and I's bathroom, my knees collapsing from underneath me as I slid against the door.

I searched through the bathroom thoroughly, to try and find some sort of sharp object I could release my feelings with.

I soon found a women's razor, and began to furiously dragging it across my wrists and thighs- not caring how deep I went.

I buried my hands in my blonde locks, a choked sob escaped my lips. I couldn't do this anymore.

I heard loud footsteps running up the stairs, then just moments later I heard Xavier calling my name as he banged the door.

"Lacey, let me in right now." Xavier pleaded, his voice cracking as I continued to make jagged, harsh lines across my creamy skin.

"You're worthless!"

"No one will ever love you!"

"You're fat!"

"You're ugly!"

"I will kill you."

"You'll never be good enough."

"Coward!"

"It's all your fault!"

My fathers disgusting words ran through my brain, and I began to sob even more, my vision becoming blurrier and blurrier by the second.

Why didn't my brother save me from those terrible nights? Was I not good enough?

I cut Xavier off, not listening to anything he said as I watched my blood ooze from my skin, quickly pooling on the white- tiled ground beneath me.

"That's it Lacey, I'm coming in." I heard Xavier growl, and I weakly backed away from the door as I saw the door being kicked down.

All I saw was Xavier's angry eyes soften with sadness as he saw me, furiously shaking me while yelling my name, before black dots started to cloud my vision.

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