Lost Love

Chapter 41

I tried calling Christian after that episode at the restaurant but it was always going to voicemail in which I have sent thousands is voicemails still he isn't responding. I was really worried about him- he wasn't texting me back or calling. It was like he was having an attack with the way he stood up abruptly.
I hope he's ok though; I would hate for anything to happen to him after we just reconciled. He looked so hurt when I introduced Micheal to him as my boyfriend; he was probably thinking we could get back together. As much as I still like him; it's not reasonable to get back with him besides, I have Micheal now.
By the way, Micheal has really been acting strange lately. He's always fidgeting around me and anytime I come into the room he would always hide his phone, sometimes I would hear him on a call with another person whispering. I wonder what's wrong with him. Anytime I ask him, he's always changing the topic. I brushed it off at the initial stage but I can't help but be worried. What if he has found another person? What if he wants to break up with me?
Waking up this morning was a struggle. I had spent my whole night thinking about the situation with Micheal that I just fell asleep at the wee hours of this morning. Micheal has been staying over lately saying he needed to be close to me but I wasn't having any of that. There must be something going on. Ever since my curiosity got the best of me and I wanted to snoop around on his phone, he has been extra careful not to leave it around me.
I was mentally drained this morning- thank God it was a weekend because I couldn't have handled going to work in this state; I would have taken a sick leave anyways. The sky was so gloomy like my face as if it shared in my mood. As usual, Micheal was nowhere to be seen in the room not like I had the strength to even converse with him this morning.
I managed to move my body down the stairs in a very lazy fashion and stopped in my tracks when I heard Micheal on the phone. Eager to hear what he was saying without him seeing me, I tiptoed to the edge of the kitchen door to be able to hear better.
I was just in time for the surprise of my entire life as I caught snippets of his conversation;
"No, I wouldn't want her to know. She's starting to suspect something, I have to be hiding to receive your calls now...a pause...I'll be there don't you worry... another long pause....yea I love you too"
My whole world came crashing down in that moment. Is he cheating on me? How could he do that? After all his profession of love, is this how he gets to treat me? Like I'm trash up to the point of telling the other person that he loves her? How could he?
Unbidded tears fell from my eyes; I couldn't hold them in anymore. So all the calls, him not wanting me to check his phone, the secret acts were all because he was cheating?
I chocked back a sob and ran upstairs before getting under the covers to cry harder.
I heard Micheal come into the room and I quickly wiped my tears. I didn't want him to see me so weak because of what he is doing. I heard him saying something but I was too engrossed in cleaning my tears that I couldn't make out what it was.
"Baby" I turned to look at him.
Should he even be allowed to call me that? After cheating on me??
"Baby, what's wrong? Have you been crying? Why are your eyes so puffy"
Shit, I forgot about my puffy eyes anytime I cry...talk about being caught
I looked at him hard wondering where I went wrong for him to cheat. We haven't fought apart from the time we argued about Christian's issue in my office and we resolved it right there. Why did he cheat?
"Charlie baby, tell me what's wrong"
"Don't call me that. You don't get to call me that" I spat out in pain
How could he just stay here and pretend like everything's fine after that phone call
"Don't call you what? Did I do something wrong?"
This guy must be crazy
"Do something wrong? Oh you've done more than something wrong. I heard you; I heard you today on the phone talking with your lover saying that I'm getting suspicious, you were gonna see her and that you love her. Don't you dare lie to me 'cause I know what I heard. So that's what this was all about right? All your late night calls, you whispering on the phone, preventing me from picking up your phone. That's it right? You were cheating. How could you? How could you do that to me?"
At this time, I was on a roll as I had already stood up from the bed jabbing my fingers into his chest with every word. Tears were dripping down my face but I didn't care. He had hurt me and I made it know to him.
The look on his face was that of shock- of course it would shock him that I found out about his infidelity.
He slowly pried my fingers off his chest from where I had his top bunched up in my plan. He made a move to hug me but I moved back to the bed with my knees raised up to my chest I started another round of tears. I hated feeling so weak but I couldn't hold it in anymore. He sat down carefully and placed his hands around my shoulders without saying anything just rubbing me.
When my tears reduced to hiccups, he raised up my head and kissed me on my lips and forehead.
"I would never cheat on you my princess"
With that he turned and left me alone. I laid in bed for quite sometime thinking he would come back to explain to me but nothing like that happened. I was so heartbroken. How would he just leave without an explanation for what I heard?
I was starving but I didn't want to eat anything so I just went downstairs to get a big bowl of strawberry flavoured ice cream from the refrigerator and chips from the pantry. I trudged back upstairs to get cozy under my blanket and watch movies till whenever I could sleep back. After what happened in the morning, I wasn't in the mood to do anything or to go anywhere.
After a while of going through movies and stuffing myself with chips and Ice cream, I was still looking for a big distraction. I missed Micheal so much and I felt so alone now that he left without an explanation.
As I was still musing to myself, my phone started ringing. With the way my bed was all scattered with wrappers of chips, several boxes of tissue and blanket all over, it was a miracle I found it. I looked at the caller ID and saw it was Micheal. I picked it up happily.
"Charlie baby, please would you come downstairs?"
I said ok and proceeded to go downstairs to receive the shock of my life