Particles Of Youth

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      There are those rare moments in life when you just realize you're alive and in a way it makes you feel terribly scared and outstandingly happy, my memory of childhood blended together sometimes I  question if they even happened before , but I have some scenes I can see as clear as day , one of them is when I met him , we were on a trip to the countryside in Colorado , it was hot and bothersome but I was offered a big cup of cherry soda that I spilled over my fingers and face and I turned into a sticky mess on the back seat of our van , next to me was Aria's brother , I didn't know him all that well back then but my 9 years old self was curious so from time to time I would pock at his shoulder and pretend to look the other way , it continued that way for a while until I feel his fingers pock at mine and for a moment we stayed completely still than we burst out laughing "I'm Danova " he said I smiled, he had a weird name and I like that "I'm Aris" I said back and although he was older than me by two years we were dear friends ever since that is until that day in black , when we both choose to dig our own holes of loneliness and stay there.

             Meeting with David made me think of a lot of things , one of them is the future , whenever I see him I also see the traces that time had on him  , it unsettles me how easy I can see through him it makes me feel in a way like I'm seeing through my self , as always he is holding a cigarette to his mouth setting there on a table outside of a coffee shop with a latte , he still wears his hat that he tips to the side , I realized I missed his company so with counted steps I took a seat next to him , " hi there ,well you took your time getting here " he said glancing at his watch , I nodded "I'm sorry I met someone I used to know on the way here" I replied he exhaled a buff of smoke " that's alright " he said putting his cigarette off , " how have you been " I asked noticing the bones on his cheeks became more visible , I sighted " as well as life is treating me" he said with a smile I called the waitress and told her to get us some cake he looked like he haven't eaten in a while , I took off my own cigarette pack and lighted one , I waited for him to speak he looked like he wanted too , " my daughter went through surgery yesterday....she has breast cancer " he clarified , I looked at the trees around us than at him , "I'm sorry to hear that , is she okey now ?" I asked he nodded " physically yes , mentally not so good" he said , I nodded I understood " you should've told me earlier , I would've provided you some company , you don't need to do this alone David , you're too old for this" I said he chuckled " you calling me old huh , nah don't worry this old man still can hold up himself " he said I nodded , I wanted to tell him I'm worried and I care , but the words seemed out of place at that moment , I sighted " anyhow , I called you here for some important matter" he said linking his fingers on the table I put my hands down and focused on his eyes, "the event you played in last week with Julia is a big step toward your future as a musician , knowing that I'm your trainer at the present an old friend of mine made you an offer " he said , I nodded for him to continue " well he wants you to fly back to England with him , they'll provide you with good opportunitnote
to show your talent and it'll be through summer so it won't disturb your studies " he said , I wanted to know more so I gave him a questioning look " his name is Rafael Reese , he's known for discovering talents all over the world , he got a sharp eye for good musician and he thinks you're worth the shot , in my opinion you should take this chance " he said with a serious tone and suddenly I remembered what he said to me that time at night , "I'll think about it" I said getting up and paying the check , he nodded " oh and David , its gonna be okey" I said the same words Julia said time that day , he looked taking back for a second than he smiled and I didn't see any cracks in that smile .

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Author's note

"All you need to do sometimes , is simply to be there for the ones you care about nothing more nothing less"