that day i murder someone...

making things right

We got to the hospital an hour ago and all ive been doing is walking back and forth waiting for pauly to wake up. Right now i just feel stupid and horrible.

I mean i could of asked who was there before i threw the knife. But did i? No because im a terrible person!

I keep looking up at pauly waiting for her to wake up. Can she just wake up already?

Another hour passes. She still hasnt woke up. I get up and go walk around. The silence of the building calms me down.

I had time to think as i walked down every hallway. I know what i have to do with pauly. No matter what happened in the past...its in the past. I need to move on. I need my best friend back.

Its crazy how everything happens to me. To the people around me.

I walk back to paulys room. As soon as i walk in her eyes are slowly opening. I give her a small smile.

"Hey..." I go sit down next to her.

"um look im very sorry. I didnt mean to do that to you." I grab ahold of her hand and hold it."Its fine...i guess you got your payback." She chuckles softly and i smile as i look down.

"I just wanted you to know that...im very very sorry for everything ive done to you. I know i keep saying it but this time i mean it." She stutters as she speaks.

I look up at her. This time i dont know if i believe her or not.

"You know i cant trust you right now." She nods."Its just everything you've done this past couple of months almost had me killed." she nods again.

"This time i mean it. I won't bored you with all these explanations but i hope that someday you'll forgive me." I shrug my shoulders and nod.

"I was hoping that day would be today but then you threw a knife at me." She laughs and i give out a small chuckle.

"About that...im very sorry." i smile at her."And anyway why were you at my house?" I look at her.

"I honestly thought you died..i didnt want to believe it. And i was at your house because i was about to grab a necklace." I look at her confused.

"Why a necklace?" She smiles.

"i had left one of the first necklaces you gave me at your house one day. And i wanted to have it..to remind me of you. " she looks down at our hands.

"So you just wanted your necklace?" She nods. This time i believed her. Something about it, i could just feel it wasnt a lie.

"Im glad your awake." I smile at her and she smiles back.

"Cher...you look so sad. Why's that?" I sigh. She always knew when i was sad. I didnt know how but she did.

"I broke things up with Robert..." My eyes start tearing up."oh im sorry.Do you want to talk about it?" I nod.

I needed someone to talk to about it."He wanted a child pauly...and he said that he was seeing someone else."  I was now crying.

"Oh..well just because he wanted a child doesnt mean you had to break up." I stare at her.

"Pauly...i cant give him what he wants.
And anyway he was already seeing a girl." I wipe my tears.

"Thats too bad. Im sorry cheralina." i smile at her.

"Thanks pauly." I kiss her on the cheek and smile."So did the doctor say when i can leave the hospital?" I nod.

"The doctor said you can leave in the next two weeks." she sighs and nods.