one year ago;
here we ago again, another day without my baby girl.
josephine still will not listen to me and i am becoming so lost, i do not know what to do. i broke her heart.. she looks so broken. we both are broken, we both are a mess. maybe she doesn't miss me, maybe she's got a new boyfriend.
i drag myself out of the bed that we once shared, dragging myself to the bathroom. i look up into the mirror which is above the sink, i am in such a bad state.
my head is pounding, my eyes are blood red and my knuckles are covered in dry blood.
i decide against the shower and throw myself back into the bed, i got high again last night. oh and i got drunk, i can't help but drink and smoke my pain away. i open the drawer that is placed on the side of "our" bed and take out the black box which holds her ring. i was going to propose, but i just had to ruin it. i hate myself. i just want my jo.
