Niko & Dom - A Bedspacers Romance (SSPG - COMPLETE)

Chapter 19.1

ONE WEEK ago…

Pagbaba ko pa lang ng cellphone pagkatapos kong makausap si Emma, naintindihan ko na kung bakit tinanggihan ako ni Dom kagabi when I asked him to be my boyfriend. Grabe pala ang ginawa noong Cedric na iyon kay Dom. That asshole didn’t know what he has given up. Dom is a special person, he might not know it because of the treatment he got from his father and his ex-boyfriend, but he certainly is, and I will let him realize and see himself as one.

What Dom needs from me now is patience. Opening up to love again after such a devastating crappy relationship requires a hell lot of courage. Being at his side at the moment is the best possible way I can do so as not to loose him forever.

Of course, I need to do my share to let him see I would never do things Cedric did to him. To show him I’m worthy of his trust and later of his love when he’s finally ready. I may not come out to all people around us immediately but I can surely do it in steps and the first of which will be telling Cherryl that we cannot continue being a couple any longer, a promise I told Dom to do.

Nang hindi dumating ang professor namin sa alas-nuwebeng subject nang umagang iyon, pinuntahan ko si Cherryl na eksakto namang vacant period niya that time. Naabutan ko siyang nakaupo sa bench na tinatambayan din namin nina Jim.

“Hey, pwede ba tayong mag-usap?” bungad ko sa kaniya waving a hand to her friends who shot me a teasing smile. “Alone.”

Biglang napalitan ang masuyong ngiti ni Cherryl ng pagkaligalig. “Sure,” tugon niya na tumayo saka nagpaalam sa mga kasamahan.

Umupo kami sa isang bench na medyo malayo sa karamihan. Keeping a safe distance from where she seated herself, I get down myself, resting my elbows on top of my legs with my fingers clasping together. Kung may choice ako hindi ko ito gagawin. Ayaw kong makapanakit ng damdamin ng ibang tao. Pero kung ipagpapatuloy ko naman mas magiging masakit para sa kaniya pag nangyari din sometime later.

“Cherryl,” I said seeking her attention and dropping the endearing word ‘babe’ we used to call each other. She was tense as our eyes locked. “This will be hard for you as it is for me but I think you need to know that we cannot be with each other anymore. I want us to stop being a couple.”

For several moments she was dumbfounded and only after taking a deep breathe she breaks her silence. “Bakit may ibang babae ka na ba?”

Umiling ako. I’m not lying because there is no other girl but there is a guy instead.

“So, hindi mo pa rin pala ako napapatawad sa pagkakasala ko sa iyo? Sa pakikipag-hook up ko sa ibang guys to get what I needed that you hold up to yourself for sometime,” kita ko ang pamumula sa kaniyang mga pisngi and I felt sorry for making her feel that way.

God! She was so mean slapping the truth at my face. Mukhang kasalanan ko pa pala kung bakit siya naglandi at talunin pa ang dahon ng gabi sa kati. I controlled my anger because I was the one asking for the break up.

“It’s not only that.” Totoo naman, maybe noong umpisa I care but not when I met Dom. Ngayon wala na akong pakialam kung nangaliwa man siya at kung ilang lalaki ang nilandi at nakatalik niya. Gusto kong makipagkalas sa kaniya dahil lang kay Dom.

“You can’t do this to me, Niko. Your father likes me so much and he even told me one time you brought me there, he has plans for us tying the knots as soon as graduation is over.”